outfit post...sort of?

i'm trying to bring some more color into my life. this was a weak attempt. wore this, you know, out hunting with my tiger friend, aka school.

i look like i'm on my way to my first day of grade 1. braided hair and all. but whatever i kind of liked it. i'd just recently rediscovered that t-shirt and had also just remembered that that skirt came with suspenders.


i know clothes posts are boring, but that's fine with me, as i am bored right now. i should be doing school work. but i don't want to.

i'm not sure where these pictures are from/why they exist but YES YES YES





also, this made me chuckle:

just a song i like. it's sad, but pretty.

i'm feeling increasingly frustrated by people.

just. fuck.
i'm not quite mad.
but i'm annoyed. frustrated.
sick of certain things.
people can be total jerks.
disappointed.

some rad art

robin f. williams:


matt hendon:

katharina trudzinski:


jim gaylord:

henrique oliveira:


charlie roberts:



allison schulnik



all of these artists have been featured on www.booooooom.com/



also, i watched the film "lives of others," i'd had it on my "to watch" list for a while but honestly didn't think it would be very good or something i would be interested in. it was an interesting story and pretty well acted. i would recommend it. while watching it i learned that the berlin wall was knocked down the day i was born. ps: the lead, ulrich mühe, looks a lot like kevin spacey. especially kevin spacey in american beauty.

COMBO a collaborative animation by Blu and David Ellis (2 times loop) from blu on Vimeo.

love stuff like this.

this one's been in my head all morning. the video is kind of cool as well.


she kind of sounds like amy winehouse. either way, i kind of like her and her hair in this video...my goodness.


another by the noisettes wild young hearts (all of the real videos had embedding disabled)


pretty sure i've posted this before, but i'm listening to it right now, as should you.

this is the collage i've been working on. it didn't really turn out the way i wanted. but whatever.

wow, no one told me that if you're thin, fashionable and beautiful move to toronto (actually that's a lie, i have been told that, but still). i've been viewing a lot of torontonian photos recently, and everyone in them is a babe. i've heard the same goes for montreal. everyone i've met from there or has moved there fits this description. so uh...well done teams. speaking of montreal, it seems that about 70% of the people i know went to montreal this summer. the thought never really occurred to me to go there. i've heard great things about it, but when i think of travel, i think of europe, asia or those mega cities in the states i haven't been to yet. i always kind of forget about canada. i know canada is big and beautiful (just how i like my men lol, well i guess tall rather than big....potato potato..that saying does not work when typed..), but it just doesn't seem exotic enough for me i guess. but if i were to go on a canada vacay, i would pick vancouver, montreal or toronto. just because they're different than home.


also, just because i can and i want to, i'm going to share with you the four nobel truths of buddhism and the eight fold path, which are the basic concepts behind buddhism.

four noble truths:
1)in every life and all aspects of life, there is suffering.
2) suffering is caused by desire or attachment
3) to end suffering, one must cease any desire/attachment
4) in order to be able to overcome desire/attachment, it is necessary to follow the eight fold path.

Eight fold path centers on the idea of right or moral living and includes:
1) right view: realization that one can achieve true happiness by following the teachings of the buddha
2) right thought: focusing on the positive to overcome difficulties
3) right speech: always telling the truth and not saying bad things about others.
4) right action: never killing, stealing, being jealous. perform good acts and help others
5) right work: doing work that will not harm any living creature
6) meditation: training your mind to concentrate and find peace from within
7) right goals: loving and helping others
8) right awareness: never letting your body control your mind; knowing when to say no.

it all kind of seems like common sense, but it seems that we forget about it because not everyone does these things. i like that in buddhism, everything is very positive and everything you do is to help others and not cause harm.
i think the research project i do for this course is going to be on the bamiyan buddha's. in 2001 the taliban blew up two ancient buddha statues. the interesting thing about this, is that one of the staples in buddhism, is not to be attached to material things. i'm going to research what the reactions of buddhists were to the destruction of the buddhas.

school update

so far i'm liking my classes well enough.

-modern to contemporary:
the subject is interesting, but the professor is really random. i try to take notes (and i would say i'm a pretty good note taker), but i leave the 3 hour class with maybe 5 words scribbled on the page and no idea what any of them have to do with anything. she also has this really frail shaky sounding voice that is hard to focus on. i think she knows what she's talking about, but i'm lost and have no idea. the pictures are cool though.

-survey in asian art: i took this one last minute because i needed another course. i didn't expect to like it, but the prof is really good and the class is a lot more than i expected. so far we've learned about buddhism which i found super interesting. it's all so positive and pretty much the opposite of what you see daily in our western materialistic society.

-death and concepts of the future: this class has not much to do with concepts of the future and everything to do with death. it's interesting because a lot of the images he show relate to/are the same as images i saw in an art history course i took last year (death in the middle ages, or something like that). also i met some people on orientation week that i sit with now so that's nice. the prof i like a lot. i've had him before. he's kind of arrogant, but it's completely fine because he's also really funny. also, he works in chicago style which i love, it's so much easier to cite things this way.

-byzantine art and architecture: honestly i skipped this first class because i already had the prof and knew that first lectures are just going over the syllabus and things. i'm going to it tomorrow and am assuming i'll like it, just like i have with the other 3 or 4 classes of his i've been in.

-intro to psych: found out on the first class that this course is mostly online and the in class lectures only last about 20-30 minutes. last class the TA told us we only have to come one of the days of the week. so now i only go on thursdays. the tutorials seem like a waste of time. she doesn't even really review what is said in the online lectures. whatever, i think it will be a generally easy course (it's a 1st year course i'm taking for my social sciences requirement). at least it should pump up my g.p.a which is always lovely.

my dream last night brought me to an interesting conclusion. i think i made a decision i didn't know i was contemplating.


i'm working on a collage thing based off a collage i'd seen on doodlers anonymous that i posted on here a while ago. it's actually kind of exactly the same, other than word changes. either way, so far i like how it's turning out. i'll post it when i'm done.

to live would be an awfully big adventure

i just remembered part of my dream from last night. bird kept flying into my window.

know what's strange...to a ten year old, i probably seem like a grown up. i bet they assume i have a boyfriend, my own apartment and a steady job. i bet they think i have everything figured out. i wonder when i'll feel old, when i'll stop feeling like i'm waiting for the important things to happen.
i bet i'll wake up one day, 50 yrs old, and wonder what happened to my youth.
this year, i'm going to really try. i'm opening myself up for opportunities and adventures. i'm going to increase the use of "yes" in my vocabulary.



right this moment i feel very positive. i have good feelings about things.

"Then, I turned around and walked to my room and closed my door and put my head under my pillow and let the quiet put things where they are supposed to be. "
— Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

"I had to fold like a grey moth and let go. "
— Margaret Atwood

"There must be millions of people all over the world who never get any love letters...I could be their leader."
— Charlie Brown

i don't know how boys do it

i think i've always known this, but it just kind of got reinforced in my brain today...girl's intimidate me.

i can make friends, and chat with guys super easily. heck even some girls, girls who like me, get along great with guys, i can make friends with them easy as pie. but girls who surround themselves with girls...i just don't knowhow to act, what to say, anything. it's like i'm trying to ask them on a date or something. i just get super intimidated and poof, i'm nonexistent.
in a work environment, i can chat to anyone, girls girls, boys girls, boy boys, girls boys, everyone. it's mostly just in social settings that my disability kicks in. but my gosh. i don't see how boys do it. some girls are just so complicated. you don't know what they're thinking at all.
i think the most intimidating of girls are the ones who look like bitches. you know the ones. some people, if they aren't smiling, just look like they can see your soul and they hate it. obviously, a bunch of them, once you get to know them are fantastic and not bitchy at all.

i guess the reason this topic is on my mind, is because i've been meeting crap loads of people over the past few months, and it's funny, when i meet these new people's friends, i find myself hoping for boys, and when i have to meet the girl friends, that's when i get nervous/shy.
along with the many fella friends i made this summer, i have made a bunch of lady friends too, so that's lovely.

my gosh i'm rambling. i'm not sure why i'm even blogging this. i guess because i can and i'm procrastinating. wow. k seriously i'll stop. ok. k. uh, ya.

schooooool

3rd year of university here i come!

technicaly i started thursday, but on thursday i only really went to one class and such. this week is the first full week of school. i have two of my art history courses today/tonight and i'm really curious about the prof's because i've only ever had 2 different profs, but mostly one. i've heard great things about one of my new profs and bad things about the other. i guess i'l just have to wait and see. i think i know a few people in these courses so that should be nice. either way, wish me luck! i love learning and i love school. (give me about a month for this to wear off when the papers start being due. i'll have three 10+ page research papers due around christmas soooo ya i'll be stressin i'm sure, but for now, i love school.)

p.s: i dyed my hair. you can't see too much of a different in that picture caz it's up, but i got a bunch of dark in it, so i'm no longer a mega bleach blonde. i'm cool with it. also, i didn't cave, i didn't cut my bangs. i'm STILL saying i'm growing them out. i also didn't cut my hair. if i cut it next time i dye it, i wont have cut my hair in a year. coooool.)

ooooou oooou ouuu ou

this song is light and pretty. the light is you by said the whale.


last night i went to a show. i had a lot of fun. got pushed/pulled on stage, where dancing and tambourine shaking commenced as well as a bunch of other things. after the show we hung out with the first band (makeover videotape) in their room at the hostel and just chatted. turns out one of the guys who was with them (in the video he's the one in the black tank top) is a model and worked for ryan mcginley in the "i know where the summer goes" pictures (i looked through them again, and they weren't shitting us, the guy is there). he's also one of the naked folks on the cover of the newest sigur ros album. thought that was neat :) i had a good night!

happy ears

good song, cute video.


(i originaly took a screen cap of a bit from the best part, but changed it so you can be fully surprised and happy when you see it yourself)
bjork - triumph of the heart. such a wacky video, the last minute is amazing. also a lovely song. i'm not sure how to post it from this website, so you'll have to follow the link. :)

shutter island

reading this book right now. so far it's really great. since i heard of the movie first, as i read it i'm thinking about how they'll shoot it as a film, and i think it will turn out really good...although i have to admit, i'm kind of worried about how they'll portray the dream sequences, those are always tough to do well in films. the book's written by the same guy who wrote gone baby gone and mystic river, both apparently good films. (i've seen mystic river, but don't really remember it, but my folks loved it, and gone baby gone, i just never got around to, although i think a few folks at the movie store watched it and they liked it.)
i'm excited for the film. i think kelsey's going to come with me to see it which is great, because she gets really scared and jumpy in movies, which makes me scared and extra jumpy, thus enhancing the movie-watching experience!

update: just finished the book. it was super good. great even. 4.5/5

funny because it's true

just some funny thoughts that stumbleupon led me to, apparently from this place (click).

"Have you ever been walking down the street and realized that you're going in the complete opposite direction of where you are supposed to be going? But instead of just turning a 180 and walking back in the direction from which you came, you have to first do something like check your watch or phone or make a grand arm gesture and mutter to yourself to ensure that no one in the surrounding area thinks you're crazy by randomly switching directions on the sidewalk. "
-always. sometimes i even cross the street, just in case..

"Sometimes, I'll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the f was going on when I first saw it. "
-it's not so much that i didn't know what was going on, it was more that as a kid you miss half the jokes that are meant for adults. i remember watching wallace and grommit: curse of the wererabbit, and there's this one part where wallace is naked holding a box up to cover his body, and the box says "may contain nuts". guaranteed no child noticed or got the joke.

"I think everyone has a movie that they love so much, it actually becomes stressful to watch it with other people. I'll end up wasting 90 minutes shiftily glancing around to confirm that everyone's laughing at the right parts, then making sure I laugh just a little bit harder (and a millisecond earlier) to prove that I'm still the only one who really, really gets it. "
-i think this goes for every movie buff/movie snob out there. basically my entire uni faculty.

"How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod and smile because you still didn't hear what they said? "
-haha, i got caught for smiling/nodding too often, so now i usually ask twice, and then if i still don't hear it ask "sorry, one more time?" and if i still don't understand i just laugh and say "i'm sorry i'm def or something, i have no idea what you're saying"...but then again, this goes right out the window when drinking is involved, the smile and nod comes back full throttle.

"I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call. "
-very very true.

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(sorry, no idea where i found this. probably funeralface.)

in other news:

i went to gimli yesterday and stayed the night, it was a lot of fun. i missed the majority of the after midnight partying though because i got sick and fell asleep lol, go me.
EITHER WAY i pretty much spent my entire day at the beach, then at a few people's houses/cabin's for the evening. we did some laying around, cartwheeling, inflatable boating, swimming, inflatable boat attacking, badminton, dancing, video game playing, music listening, and a whole lot of smiling. i had fun :)

i just had google translate a swedish blog i've browsed now and again for the past while. obviously i've never understood what the person was saying. it may surprise you that i'm not fluent in swedish. i was just looking at the pictures before.
anyway, i thought that was really neat that google can do that. now that i can read what the blog girl is writing though, it still doesn't really make sense....

examples:
"Vette fan what happened. Something struck snapped.
Liver liver liver, perhaps a bit more edge than encountered before but clearly at full life."
"I have a lack of other victims and dryers do not carry a camera with me. Have pain everywhere. I have been to hell and with sore muscles in the throat. Went home with misty eyes coated lens. I look look look but forgets to look, of course. Jumps to an upset deer when something unexpected turns around the corner (a fat cyclist)."


...it's kind of like poetry...

book/movie updates

here's my thoughts on what i've read and seen (the only ones i remember seeing right now) this past month: (if you want to know what the books/movies are about, click on their names to bring you to their imdb or amazon pages. i'm awful at describing things so i thought i'd leave it for the professionals)
books:


running with scissors - augusten burroughs
i'd seen the movie, which i thought was ok. the book (like most things) was a lot better. i liked it a lot. it was a quick, interesting read. it's crazy that it's all apparently a true story. 3.5/5


dave gorman's googlewhack adventure - dave gorman
really good, really funny. he's pal's with danny wallace (who wrote the yes man and join me, both which i recommend) and writes in a similar style, if you've read any wallace, check out this fella. it was laugh out loud funny. i liked danny wallace's books better, but either way, read it. or if you don't like to read (what? really? what's wrong with you?), he's also a stand-up comedian and you can find this googlewhack adventure as a stand-up performance on youtube. 4/5


my booky wook: an autobiography of sex, drugs and stand-up - russel brand
i bought this book because i liked russel brand. honestly, i like him less after reading this. i guess i'd been in the mind-frame of reading funny books, and since he's a comedian i thought this would be funny as well. things he thought would be amusing stories really weren't. i think his comedy is better to be seen than read. it didn't really leave me feeling sympathetic for him at all, it kind of made me think he was a twat the whole time. i still think he's funny as a stand-up comedian or as the rockstar in forgetting sarah marshall, but the only reason i would tell you to pick up this book, would be to look at the pictures in it of him as a boy and teen. some are amusing. 2/5.

movies:

i FINALLY saw the big lebowski. it was great. steve buschemi had such a small role. but he was still funny. john goodman was great and obviously so was jeff bridges. not much else to say on this one. if you haven't seen it, go watch it. now. 5/5


i also finally saw the girl who leapt through time. i'd been wanting to watch it for a while because i thought it had an interesting concept. i didn't like it as much as i thought i would. it's no spirited away or princess monoke, but it's still decent. the friends who i watched it with liked it quite a bit. if you like anime, i'd say check it out. 4/5