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what's been in my head the past few days.

edit:
taking out my stupid rants and growls for this...another song that's been in my head:

i really like Julian Casablancas' voice. and his facebodyetc. i actually know someone who looks quite a lot like him. i feel like a lot of my friends look like famous people...is that weird?

my one complaint about the breakfast club is the coupling that happens at the end.
i can kind of understand andrew and allison pairing up, because we see that they bond over their parent issues and you can see them sticking up for one another throughout the movie. plus, allison gets a makeover and is now conventionally pretty so andrew's all up on it.
but bender and claire? what? he's literally such a dick to her the whole time. you can tell that he's attracted to her and wants her attention and she kind of digs his bad boy attitude, but still, he just makes her cry and insults her nonstop. i dunno, maybe it's just me, but i've seen this movie probably close to 40 times, and i have yet to witness the moment they fall for each other...
that being said though...i'm still insanely attracted to john bender.

john bender

it's that time again.

tea.
knit.
breakfast club.

sounds like a good sunday evening to me.

knitting, i'm doing it.

life goal 273, part 1: teach myself how to knit. check.
life goal 273, part 2: knit a scarf. working on it.

(in that picture my left eye looks brown while my right eye looks blue. hmm.
also, never mind my mop top, it's sunday, i'm allowed to look messy)

oh my darlin

hmm. i had no idea "Oh my darling, Clementine" was about this:

In a cavern, in a canyon,
Excavating for a mine
Dwelt a miner forty niner,
And his daughter Clementine

Oh my darling, Oh my darlin,
Oh my darling Clementine
Thou art lost and gone forever,
Dreadful sorry, Clementine

Light she was and like a fairy,
And her shoes were number nine,
Wearing boxes, without topses,
Sandals were for Clementine.

She drove ducklings to the water
Ev’ry morning just at nine,
Hit her foot against a splinter,
Fell into the foaming brine.

Ruby lips above the water,
Blowing bubbles, soft and fine,
But, alas, I was no swimmer,
So I lost my Clementine.

How I missed her! How I missed her,
How I missed my Clementine,
But I kissed her little sister,
I forgot my Clementine.

Then the miner, forty niner
Soon began to peak and pine
Thought he ought to join his daughter
Now he's with his Clementine

In a churchyard near the canyon
Where the myrtle doth entwine
There grows roses and the posies
Fertilized by Clementine

In my dreams she still doth haunt me
Robed in garments, soaked in brine
Then she rises from the waters
And I kiss my Clementine


now that i know the full lyrics to this song, the name choice for kate winslet's character in eternal sunshine of the spotless mind is much more significant. (and no, i don't think it is a coincidence, because they make reference to the song in the film). i really like that.

like a stamp to a letter

listening to this on repeat today. such a cheery lovely song.

now off to work i go.

i've been having strange feelings lately.

oh my word. amazing.

the hurtin's on me yeah

p.s: step one for learning how to knit complete. yarn and needles = bought.

why, charlie brown, why?

i remember watching this episode when i was little about linus meeting a little girl with blonde hair who bruises easily. then we find out she has leukemia and loses all of her hair in chemo and people at school make fun of her. then one day she comes back and her hair is all grown back. this episode made me paranoid when i was little that i had leukemia because i was always bruising. of course i had no idea what that was anyway other than you'd go to the hospital and lose all of your hair. what a heavy message charlie brown.

a whole lotta blabbing

i finally went to a homeopathic doctor, and i found it really helpful! she took my blood and looked at it under a microscope which was hooked up to a tv so that i could see what she saw, and she explained to me what he different things that i was seeing meant. it really helped me get a new understanding of whats going on with my body and what i can/need to do to help it. as well, the appointment lasted about an hour and a half which was lovely in comparison to my normal doctor where there are so many patients and you're in and out in fifteen minutes.
i could literally go on for ages about the entire visit, it was really eye opening and informative. i'm really glad i went (even though it's not covered by health care so i had to fork over a pretty penny for it), it felt like it was worth every cent.

tomorrow morning, i start my new routine. i'm really excited to see what happens.
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the closer i become to graduating university the more my mind runs wild with what will happen when i'm done. i just can't figure out if i'm being realistic or not. i may be day dreaming, i may not have the guts, etc. a lot can happen in four months...

i watched the film vicky christina barcelona the other day (which i enjoyed) and i felt like i really related to the character christina. one thing that was repeatedly said about christina that i really related to was that she doesn't know what she wants, but she knows what she doesn't want. i feel this way about certain aspects of my life. mostly when it comes to relationships. and even there, i do know what i want, but sometimes i'm just too afraid to take that leap.
i do know what i want out of life, love and work. my life must involve art, creativity, people and new experiences.

on thursday night i'm helping out with a really exciting show at the gallery i'm volunteering with. i've been looking forward to this show since i started and i feel like it's been months in the making, which it has, ut i mean, i feel like i've really contributed ot this show. i've been helping out with it from the beginning. i think it will be a great success, a great experience and a great learning opportunity! that sounds very cheesy and very interview-answer-esque, but i mean it!

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on wednesday (the plan is that) i'm going to a knitting party, where (duh) i'll learn how to knit! new hobby here i come. if i'm any good at it, expect some funky (and hopefully well constructed) scarves for christmas.

i had one more thing to say, but i forget. so goodnight and i love you.

OH! i remembered. i want to do a painting. it will be long and skinny and feature several of my friends because they inspire me on a daily basis in every way possible.



man, i sound really cheesy on my blog.

oh..uhmm...well...huh.

it's funny, i was trying to write a post about how essential communication is, but i couldn't really figure out how to word what i wanted to say.

i guess that dialogue is staying internal.

for now.

swap exchange

so i did a cd exchange thing organized over fb and got paired with my friend scott. the cd i got from him is great great great. and even better than the cd is the cd case he made! check it out:


front

inside

back

song list (artist - song):
1. the books - motherless bastard
2. broadcast - tender buttons
3. blank dogs - open and shut
4. harlem - torture me
5. ramona falls - russia
6. kurt vile - freeway
7. john vanderslice - they won't let me run
8. thao nguyen - moped
9. timber timbre - i get low
10. the microphones - i felt my size (acoustic)
11. avi buffalo - five little sluts
12. black moth super rainbow - one flowery sabbath
13. tune-yards - fiya
14. the books - venice
15. the fiery furnaces - bright blue tie
16. condo fucks - with a girl like you
17. best coast - crazy for you
18. waves - take on the world
19. the shangri-las - radio spot: revlon natural wonder
20. lost in the trees - song for the painter
21. scout niblett - duke of anxiety
22. lightspeed champion - dry lips
23. the awkward stage - i hurt the ones that love me
24. the books - all our base are belong to them
25. the war on drugs - arms like boulders
26. bowerbirds - northern lights
27. the books - ahh...i see


my song list (song - artist) for him went like so:

1. buttons - sia
2. i wanna be ignored - ezra furman and the harpoons -
3. there's nothing in the water we can't fight - cloud control
4. go outside - the cults
5. here comes the sun - wise blood
6. this is how we walk on the moon - arthur russel
7. galapagospel - alanadale
8. strt srns - wise blood
9. those rats built us a getaway! - alanadale
10. i guess the lord is in new york - makeout videotape
11. there is no light - wildbird & peacedrums
12. worm mountain - the flaming lips
13. river - akron/family
14. take off your sunglasses - ezra furman and the harpoons
15. black swan - thom yorke
16. by your side - cocorosie
17. grizzley man - rockettothesky
18. you fly me - fingathing
19. skins theme tune - fat segal

meet henry, my texas tie.

i found this at value village a while back. i don't know why, but when i saw it, i had to have it.


(the weights at the bottoms of the leather strings are shaped like bullets. bang bang!)

note to self

can people actually feel fulfilled and satisfied? completely content and happy with where they are and what they're doing?
i don't think so. i hope so, but i really don't know.
actually, you know what, yes. i think you can. if you're in love, you really do feel like you have it all.

i think once you feel like you find meaning in the moment you're living, that, is when you can feel completely satisfied.

yes, everything has meaning if you look for it, and everything you do leads you to your next destination that will lead you somewhere else, that may even lead you to that moment of contentment. but humans are impatient creatures.

look out for all the great things.
appreciate the people around you.
take more risks.
say yes.


something i learned when i was in jr.high was that you really didn't need to think about what other people thought, because really, no one is really paying attention to you any way. everyone is so wrapped up in themselves they don't have time to notice the "flaws" you worry about.

this is me rambling. these are some thoughts. brought on by a picture of some boats. it's funny how thoughts process.

fact: she has a septum piercing (no you can't see it here)

whoa. hey there scarlett. someone's looking mighty pretty today.

burning man

i have two friends who are going to burning man this year, so i was reading a bit about the festival. it sounds amazing. it takes place at the Black Rock Desert just outside of Reno, Nevada, and is an arts festival of sorts. a community is built and everything that is brought to the desert is taken away at the end, leaving no trace behind. temperatures range from 38C during the day to 4C at night. the website describes it as "an annual experiment in temporary community dedicated to radical self-expression and radical self-reliance."
the experience would be intense to say the least. check out the website for more.

some pictures from the Burning Man galleries: