ice ice baby

i've been having disturbing dreams for the past month and a half/two months.
i wouldn't call them nightmares, because i don't wake up scared, but they're just not good dreams. really dark and twisted things happen.

the other night i dreamed that i was dying slowly and no one believed me. i was leaning over a sink feeling really weak and i had a really bad nosebleed. everyone thought i was just being dramatic and kept telling me that it was just a nosebleed, but i would tell them that it can't be just a nosebleed, i'd never had a nosebleed in my entire life. i was hemorrhaging inside. no one believed me. after a while, someone pulled my shirt sleeve aside and noticed my entire body was blue and bruised, because i was bleeding internally, but now it was too late to do anything about it.

nice hey? hmm.

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side note: i hate winter. it gets way too cold and makes me a hermit. this winter i wont have access to a car like i'm used to, so i'm really going to have to push myself to man up and face the cold if i don't want to kill my social life for a couple months lol. ugh. when you know that it's scientifically possible for any exposed skin to get frost bite in two minutes, and you have a 10 minute walk, and probably another 10 minute wait, for your bus....it gets really hard to leave the house.

seeing double

noel fielding


kate bush

i thought i understood it

I thought I understood it
That I could grasp it
But I didn’t
Not really
I knew the smudgeness of it
The pink-slippered-all-containered-semi-precious eagerness of it
I didn’t realize it would sometimes be more than whole
The wholeness was a rather luxurious idea
Because its the halves that halve you in half
Didn’t know
Don’t know about the in between bits
The gore-y bits of you
And gore-y bits of me
-from "like crazy"

just happened to catch a patrick watson concert on tv. this is what he's currently playing.

god's eye view.

this is cool.

songs that have made me cry

one of my friends is being ripped away from her boyfriend and is about to attempt the dreaded long distance relationship. it seems that quite a few people i know have been in that situation. it's weird that one of my first thoughts when she found out his leaving date was "i should see if she wants me to compile a list of sad songs to cry to." then i thought about how that's weird, but she totally would be down.
i think we all do it. some people read something sad, some people watch tear jerkers, and some of us put on sad music. i do it all. sometimes you just need to make yourself cry when it wont come out on its own.

so, here are a few that have made me cry for various reasons over the past few years.









i'm a suck. yes, i know.
i'm sure there are a lot more, but these were the first few that came to mind.

christmas is a solid 3 months away.......but i'm already getting excited about it and thinking about what i could make people.

but first: thanksgiving, halloween and my birthday.

"Don't waste your time with fear. Fear wont keep you safe from getting hurt."

because you ain't so sweet to me

you scary thangs, you!

to the store!

sooo strange, but made me laugh.

Die Vögel: Fratzengulasch from timo schierhorn on Vimeo.

hennorama

my friend brought back henna powder with her from india, and we finally got around to using it. we didn't really have a good tool for application (we literally had a cardboard cone in a plastic bag that we had poked a hole in...), so the lines were really thick and everything was a lot messier than we had hoped, but in the end, it worked out pretty decent....except i forgot how long henna takes to fade away and i would like it to be gone sooner rather than later.

either way, this was the result:

lost and nameless

I through Z.

Yvan Rodic:




Yonghoji:



Willi Dorner:



Vinyl Williams:



Vincent Musi:


Treasure Frey:




Travis Summer Deuel:




Terayama Shuji:



Tero Ormand:



Susan Worsham:


Shana Carrara:


Scott Massey:


Scarlett Hooft Graafland:




Sara Conti:


Sam Weber:


Samuel Bradley:


Sam Vanellemeersch:


Ryan Burbis:



Roland Flexner:


Robyn Cummings:


Robi Joeleht:



Robert Minervini:


Peter Raven:





Pascal Fellonneau:


Kate Shaw:



Nikita Pirogov:


Nick Sheehy:





Nick Hopper:


Nicholas Kalmakoff:





Nelio:


Nathalie Mohadjer:



Matthew Coleman:


Maskul Lasserre:



Marie Zucker:



Marie Aly:



Marco Mazzoni:





Marcel Musil:


Lukas Zwierzbowski:



Lucas Massaro:


Lisa Wassmann:



Lisa Congdon:



Leopold Rabus:





Lauren Colton:



Ki Yoong:


Keith Young:


Joakim Eskildsen



Jesse Kanda:



Jen Shesse:


Jennifer Coates:


Jen Mann:



Jei Tootle:



Jeanine Caron:


Kason John Wurm:


Jan Mankes:



Jacob Magraw-Mickelson



Leigh Ellexson: