Wednesday, February 10, 2010



everything about this movie makes me want to give myself away to love.

this is my message to you-ou-ou

this past week has been kind of ridiculous. it had big ups and big downs.
on saturday morning with another big shit of bad news dumped on me i was kind of a mess.
while sitting at the forks and talking about some things and being upset, the conversation came to an end with a sigh and a promise that it will be ok.
at that exact moment, the busker on the floor below us, who was completely unaware of us, starts playing three little birds by bob marley. PERFECT timing.


Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing's gonna be all right.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

i can't picture myself beyond 29.
i think as the younger sibling i was born to annoy and be a smart ass.
in a perfect world..

it would be warm and sunny all the time.
you could ride bikes year round.
if you didn't feel like working that day, you didn't have to.
i work in a gallery giving tours or just helping people enjoy art.
i could sew my own clothes.
i could do crafts all day if i wanted.
i had tons of paint and was talented enough to paint with them.
i could play the ukulele.
i had a lovely singing voice.
i was naturally blonde.
i never got zits.
no one fought, was mean, grumpy, or talked shit about other people.
we were all happy.
everyone knew what it was like to be in love.
i lived in my own cute apartment with a never ending supply of books.
everything had a pastel glow.
things were like how they felt.
everyone was naturally fit and people didn't die unexpectedly.

things i can realistically work on: working in a gallery, sew my own clothes, start gathering my own paints, learn how to play the ukulele, have my own cute apartment near a library (never ending supply of books). also, once i'm financially able and at the point in my life where i feel ready, i can move to some place without winter.
i feel like once my school is finished, i will have the freedom to do what i want. i may be sadly mistaken, but for now, that's how i feel.


i'm glad i'm an optimist. even when i feel so so shitty and do shitty things, i know things will get better. i believe in positive thinking and that working hard will produce positive results. i try to work past my flaws and try to remember to enjoy things and experience as much as i can.

Saturday, January 23, 2010