the series continues. step 2: oddities.

the series begins. step 1: yellow

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i think only revolutions is going to be another mark z danielewski book that i attempt, but do not finish. it's very rare that this happens, i'm usually someone who can't stop something halfway through, but i really can't follow this book. the book tells two sides of the story, one for each of the characters perspectives. you read the top portion of the book, which is Hailey's story. once you get to the end, you turn the book upside down and read Sam's story. okay, easy enough. if it wasn't written in a strange poetry dialect. it's pretty to read, but i feel like i need a decoder to read it. i'll probably work my way through the rest of Hailey's perspective, but unless something amazing happens i wont be reading the other half.
as far as i can tell, Hailey had sex with someone for money, then got gang banged/raped, possibly more than once, then meets Sam and they sleep together quite a bunch, then there's another group of men who want to gang bang/rape Hailey and they run away. right now they're at a party and Hailey is having sex with someone called "the Creep". i'm confused.

here's a sampling of what i'm reading:
Anywho, I've mucho to scorch. No dillydallying for me. But silly boy so impressed still gallops after me. He'll burn too.
If he keeps up.
If he doesn't keep up.
Everyone burns and
no one keeps up.
I'm that fast, man.
Woobling loose the travis.
--Wait, Sam gaps.
Turning me back
to--What?
his offer:
--Okay, you can be mys lave.
My flying kick nicks his nose.
A warning. Worse if I weren't
succumbing to squeal.
What a heel.
I'm too multiple to feel.
A fork ahead.
I take both.

we'll see what comes of this.

i went to the library today to gather books for my research paper i should be working on right this moment. as well as five books on frida kahlo, i also picked up Second Hand: a novel by michael zadoorian (not really sure what it's about, i just skimmed the back and added it to my pile), the Black Dahlia by james ellroy (i've never seen the movie, but have heard it's good, and usually books are better than the film anyway), A Scanner Darkly by philip k. dick (again, haven't seen the movie, but will give the book a shot first), and lastly Lizard by Banana Yoshimoto (no idea what it's about, i think it's a collection of short stories by an author from japan).


oh oh oh to read. it's the kind of adventure that never gets old.

LEAVE ME YOUR BOOK RECOMMENDATIONS.

folk fest was a lot of fun. it was really chill and mellow, but also got really crazy at times (in the best way). i met a bunch of really great people. more in depth stories later.

in other news, it's been coming to my attention more and more lately how i'm such a boy. sometimes i'm also an old woman. i'm not a young female adult, i'm a male grandma.

hoo who?

i made an owl mask (out of plaster, feathers and paint) for a festival i'm going to. i looks a lot better in person, but there it is ^

i'm not sure if i will for sure bring it or not because i don't want to wreck it or lose it. we shall see! i have a lot of other costume things i'm bringing as well...

things from my brain

-i was going through a notebook of mine i've been scribblin lists and random things in for the past two years. most of it are just lists of movies, gift ideas, songs, ect. one thing i wrote at some point though was "i saw your silhouette today."
no idea where that came from, but i like it.

-when someone is putting you into their phone and they ask how to spell your name, it means they have no idea what it is. unless your name is really odd and unique. lauren, yeah, not so much. i will for sure call you on it by the way. (not gonna lie though, i've definitely had to pull this before. it's better then calling someone the wrong name! which i've done embarrassingly at least twice. i called someone carlos whose name is tyler, and a girl ayla whose name was avery. whoops. the carlos/tyler incident was one for the records though lol)

-i finished dear john. i was really sad during the first half, but then i think i removed myself from it a bit and it got real cheesy. all in all, it's in par with a chick flick. read it if you want a book you'll learn nothing from, but want to read some romance and cry a bit. next book o the docket is only revolutions by mark z. danielewski who also wrote house of leaves (which i never finished, but one day will reread because it was really interesting, it was just a very tough read and i was reading it during school when my mind needed to put attention of the textbooks i was supposed to be reading). not really sure what this one is about, it was with the bargain books at chapters, so i just kind of took a leap with it. a brief summary found on wikipedia (obviously a totally legit and reliable source ;) ) is "Sam and Hailey, and Hailey and Sam, wild and wayward teenagers who never grow old. With an evolving stable of cars, the teenagers move through various places and moments in time as they try to outrace history."

-what is a docket? dictionary.com says:
dock·et (dkt)
n.
1. Law
a. A calendar of the cases awaiting action in a court.
b. A brief entry of the court proceedings in a legal case.
c. The book containing such entries.
2. A summary or other brief statement of the contents of a document; an abstract.
3. A list of things to be done; an agenda.
4. A label or ticket affixed to a package listing the contents or directions for assembling or operating.
tr.v. dock·et·ed, dock·et·ing, dock·ets
1. Law To enter in a court calendar or in a record of court proceedings.
2. To provide with a brief identifying statement.
3. To label or ticket (a parcel).

-since my dog died whenever i see any animal or baby, i have the strongest urge to pick it up and give it a huge hug. i miss holding my dog! so give me yours to hold!

(this peacock just looks so plump and soft. i want to pick this up. i think it would peck my face off though...)

-that's it. have a great day.

tears for fun?

why do we do things that we know will make us cry? is it a girl thing or an everyone thing? i ask this because i'm reading a book right now that was recommended to me with "you'll like it. it's really good, you'll cry for sure." the same has been said during movie recommendations. why is it that if a movie/book will make you cry, it's considered a good thing? i guess it's because its a work of fiction that creates real emotions in you and we all like to live vicariously through characters in books and films. we like to travel away from our lives from time to time, and experience someone else's. but still, why do we choose ones that will make us cry?
when you're upset you might go and listen to sad music or watch a sad movie etc that will make you cry it out rather than make you feel happier.

i'm not meaning to criticize any of this. i'm one of the worst offenders for this. i really do love when books and movies make me cry. i like feeling intense emotions for these make believe characters. i'm just wondering aloud as to why.

what book is making me cry? *sigh* i hate to admit it, but it's dear john. yes, a nicholas sparks novel. all of his stories are the same (this conclusion is based on the notebook (movie), dear john (book) and the last song (which i haven't seen, but know enough about). a boy and girl meet. they're from different sides of the track (rich/poor, trouble maker/saint, etc). they're together for a summer and somehow fall head over heals in love. then they are forced apart and they try to cope without each other, or how to cope with the struggles in their ever changing relationship.
all the stories may be the same, but they do work. everyone can relate to the story in one way or another. i bawled in the notebook. i've already bawled several times in dear john (and i'm only half way through!)