p.s:

people usually think i'm older than i am, and just think i look young for my age.

i find that interesting.

picture you lovely

p.s: i don't know where it came from, but i'm kind of digging long hair on guys.

the morning after my last post, i woke up with a bruised hip bone and a sprained pinky finger. it took me a second to remember how i got those injuries, and when i remembered i smiled. i got my torso stuck in a tree, hence the bruised hip. and i was tickling/wrestling for a ball and somehow sprained my pinky in the process. both still hurt.

today i was thinking about if i was a song, what kind of song i would be. i would like to be a kind of song that sounds happy and cheery and wonderful, but when you listen to the lyrics you realize the song has a lot more to offer than a smile.

1945 by neutral milk hotel kind of reminds me of that. there are other songs that would make better examples, but i really like the story this song tells. plus it's really catchy.

The only girl I've ever loved
Was born with roses in her eyes
But then they buried her alive
One evening 1945
With just her sister at her side
And only weeks before the guns
All came and rained on everyone
Now she's a little boy in Spain
Playing pianos filled with flames
On empty rings around the sun
All sing to say my dream has come

But now we must pack up every piece
Of the life we used to love
Just to keep ourselves
At least enough to carry on

And now we ride the circus wheel
With your dark brother wrapped in white
Says it was good to be alive
But now he rides a comet's flame
And won't be coming back again
The Earth looks better from a star
That's right above from where you are
He didn't mean to make you cry
With sparks that ring and bullets fly
On empty rings around your heart
The world just screams and falls apart

But now we must pack up every piece
Of the life we used to love
Just to keep ourselves
At least enough to carry on

And here's where your mother sleeps
And here is the room where your brothers were born
Indentions in the sheets
Where their bodies once moved but don't move anymore
And it's so sad to see the world agree
That they'd rather see their faces fill with flies
All when I'd want to keep white roses in their eyes

tonight i scrapped my hand while climbing a tree.
totally worth it.

i am now going to have a 2:30am shower and i bet it'll be wonderful.
i have a neat idea for a art project i want to do. you'll probably never see it. unless i trust you, because i'm shy like that.

i found out today i won tickets to a movie this wednesday. i don't think i've ever really won a prize before. i mean, i've won at scratch tickets (twice in a row...and only once since), but this is different. i'm kind of thinking everyone who emailed the contest won movie passes....BUT STILL! i think it's cool :)

i keep making weird decisions and i dunno what to do anymore. i'm trying to make the right ones, but it doesn't seem like any of them are more right. sorry. i'm rambling. i got told not to apologize so much today. i didn't realize i apologized all that much. i guess i do. oh i just said it. k now i'm really just going on about nothing. goodnight.

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this looks amazing

stalker love songs

i don't know why i like this song. or why it makes me smile....
it might be the accent.
it might be the fact that she doesn't really rhyme.
it might be because she reminds me of amelie.
ya, that's it :)

best lines:
"they would have liked me..caz..sometimes i'm funny"
"so then i told him, if i find her, i'll just find something, anything, just a gun if i can, anything, and i'm strong enough so...i'll do it, i'll kill her"


here's another by soko. i will never love you more..


the boy i left behind by theoretical girl. she just has such a pretty voice. for the first time ever i think, i've been getting really into music of girls with super feminine pretty voices like this lady, and laura marling. normally i'm into guys who are bad singers. hmm.

mythbusters

i'm a klutz and bruise like a peach (or maybe for this post i should say i bruise like a banana ha har). not the best combination. so of course i have mad bruisage all over. the other day i searched the internet for a cure or quicker heeling process for bruises. they had a bunch of strange tips. in my head the one that sounded most valid was taping a ripe banana peel to the bruise overnight. why this sounded valid to me, i'm not sure....i guess because bananas are healthy and have vitamins? either way, i just had a nap after eating a banana and thought, what the hell, let's give it a try!

conclusion:
i think it actually may have helped! i may give it a overnight trial tonight...i'll let you know how it goes.

other uses for banana's as provided to me by the internet:
-Make a face mask
-Eat a frozen "banana-sicle"
-Tenderize a roast
-Polish silverware and leather shoes
-Brighten up houseplants
-Deter aphids
-Use as fertilizer or mulch
-Add to compost pile
-Attract butterflies and birds
-Cures warts
-Heals acne
-Ointment(it said rubbing on a scraped knee can help promote healing, so bruises aren't that far off right?)


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oh, another strange thing i've done recently...i ate a cricket. they were selling dried crickets in salt/vinegar, sour cream and bacon/cheese at sugar mountian. i was curious. we bought the bacon/cheese. basically it tatsed like crunchy nothing. although i did get the cricket legs stuck in my mouth. that was unpleasent.