yes.

new video by ok go. end love.

i'm sorry in advance..

i'm not sure how exactly or why this happened....but i'm now an avid follower of the stupid reality show the bachelorette. i know, i know, it's not the most stimulating of shows, but it sure is entertaining. there's this one really sweet guy on the show named kasey, and you can tell he means well and he really just wants to fall in love, but he is also kind of nuts. kasey and the bachellorette ali went on a one-on-one date tonight and he kept randomly singing her songs about what they were doing, not in a "i'm being goofy and sing-narrating what's happening" but in a "check out my awesome voice, i'm gonna sweep you off your feet la la la" kind of way. he kept saying really cheesy things as well that you might find cute and endearing if you were already in love with the person, but on a [practically] first date it's a little (aka A LOT) too much. she ended up telling him that he seems too over the top and not genuine and she just wanted to see the real him. he didn't get a rose on the date, but he didn't get sent home either, he got another chance before the big rose ceremony.
so. he decides that he needs to do something that shows her he's genuine, etc. and remember, she says he's too over the top right now and he needs to just chill out. what does he do you ask?
he gets a tattoo. yup. a tattoo. of a rose, a shield and a heart on his wrist, because he keeps telling her that he's there to guard her heart. WHAT?! eek. that's like a dude getting your name tattooed on his chest after your second date. way too intense. i'm sorry. whoa.


judge me all you want, but i'm hooked on the bachelorette. whyyyyyyy?!

p.s: he didn't get a chance to show her the tattoo this wekk, but i think he'll reveal it next week. and then i think she'll boot him off. my goodness. guys, do not take dating tips from this show.

i'm feeling so many things right now. i'm happy, scared, excited, nervous, worried, anxious, bored, loved, lost, and the list goes on. i've been having several really odd dreams again. in short, i shall describe three of my last several dreams i've had the past two nights.
1) i was on a hunt for hard boiled eggs, and later i found two of my friends in a closet magically making rainbows.
2) my friend and i were making each other shirts. i was deciding what to eat for breakfast. i woke up at 11:05 and was late for work.
3) i was following a friend up some stairs to a rooftop party and i had a feeling something really really bad was going to happen. once on the roof i started freaking out and crying. i had a vision of his guy telling me everything would be ok, i looked up and saw him and i got carried toward him and we hugged while i cried, but i knew we couldn't stop whatever was about to happen, but we'd get through it and figure things out together.


i don't believe that certain objects symbolize other things in dreams. i think your dreams are an odd combinations of your thoughts, feelings, and things you experience throughout your day.
1) i've been on a hard boiled egg kick lately because i need protein and don't eat much meat. it's been raining like crazy (hence the rainbows) and i hadn't seen those two guys in a while and had just looked at pictures of them.
2) i've been hanging out a lot with the girl in this dream lately and she can make her own clothes and i want to learn how. i love cereal. and i worked that day at 11.
3) the thing that was bad that was going to happen involved one of my friends who i know has been kind of down in the dumps lately and it was his birthday the other day so i was thinking about him. i've been to lots of parties lately. the guy who i went toward is someone i think is really attractive and reminds me of someone i feel really comfortable around. and i tend to have a lot of rooftop/stairwell settings in my dreams.


even though i can usually break the majority of my dreams down into sources, i still think dreams are really interesting. i think it's amazing that the mind can create these things separate from the waking mind. i do wonder if they try to warn us or tell us about things. i feel that dreams can show you feelings that you didn't know you had.
i could sit around all day and tell people my dreams and hear theirs. i think they're wonderful.

holy moley me oh my

the way this makes me feel. i hope you feel it too.


Alabama, Arkansas,
I do love my ma and pa,
Not the way that I do love you

Holy, Moley, me, oh my,
You're the apple of my eye,
Girl I've never loved one like you.

Man oh man you're my best friend,
I scream it to the nothingness,
There ain't nothing that I need.

Well, hot and heavy, pumpkin pie,
Chocolate candy, Jesus Christ,
Ain't nothing please me more than you.

Ahh Home. Let me come home
Home is wherever I'm with you.
Ahh Home. Let me go ho-oh-ome.
Home is wherever I'm with you.

La, la, la, la, take me home.
Mother, I'm coming home.

I'll follow you into the park,
Through the jungle through the dark,
Girl I never loved one like you.

Moats and boats and waterfalls,
Alley-ways and pay phone calls,
I've been everywhere with you.

We laugh until we think we’ll die,
Barefoot on a summer night
Nothin’ new is sweeter than with you

And in the streets you run afree,
Like it's only you and me,
Geeze, you're something to see.

Ahh Home. Let me go home.
Home is wherever I'm with you.
Ahh Home. Let me go ho-oh-ome.
Home is wherever I'm with you.

La, la, la, la, take me home.
Daddy, I'm coming home.

Him: Jade
Her: Alexander
Him: Do you remember that day you fell outta my window?
Her: I sure do, you came jumping out after me.
Him: Well, you fell on the concrete, nearly broke your ass, you were bleeding all over the place and I rushed you out to the hospital, you remember that?
Her: Yes I do.
Him: Well there's something I never told you about that night.
Her: What didn't you tell me?
Him: While you were sitting in the backseat smoking a cigarette you thought was gonna be your last, I was falling deep, deeply in love with you, and I never told you til just now.

Ahh Home. Let me go home.
Home is wherever I'm with you.
Ahh Home. Let me go ho-oh-ome.
Home is where I'm alone with you.

Home. Let me come home.
Home is wherever I'm with you.

Ahh home. Yes I am ho-oh-ome.
Home is when I'm alone with you.

Alabama, Arkansas,
I do love my ma and pa...
Moats and boats and waterfalls,
Alley-ways and pay phone calls...

Ahh Home. Let me go home.
Home is wherever I'm with you.
Ahh Home. Let me go ho-oh-ome.
Home is where I'm alone with you...

oh that adrian

i have no idea why this made me smile as big as it did, but maybe it'll do the same for you!

my blog cuts a bit of the video off, so go to this link for the full sized video!

UPDATE:
so when i first posted this, i watched the video at least 8 times that day. that night i dreamed that adrien brody came into my work and i was so excited and asking him a bunch of things and telling him how much i loved him. i think i annoyed him and he left my store and while he was leaving i shouted "WAIT! I HAVE ONE MORE QUESTION! have you ever seen brodyquest?!"
haha i'm the biggest dork.

nine. it's less than ten.

if you're in/have ever been in university, you've probably had the nightmare where you realise you have an exam for a course you've completely forgot you're in and have never been so a single class. being in my summer online course feels exactly like this. only it's not a dream. it feels really odd to NEVER go to a physical class. all i do is read my text books and look things up online. i haven't had my first quiz yet, which is also online. we'll see how that goes. i'd really like to do well in this.

i haven't collected too many pictures lately. this is all i have. enjoy. i've been too much text lately, not enough pictures.










also, random side note: i'm trying to eat healthy and bike a lot lately. i had a dream the other night where someone offered me a poptart and i went to go get one but then i'm like "oh wait, no, i can't, i'm trying to eat healthy." way to go dream me!
for june: no chocolate and no starbucks. because i spend too much money on these. if i really wanted to save a bundle i'd also say no bagels....but then i'd probably starve.