so i've discovered i can't really do the health food thing until i can eat fruits and veggies again. since i got my wisdom teeth out, all i can handle is mush. yogurt, porridge, smoothies (but now my blender is broken), soup, alphaghetti, and the best feeling: ice cream, have been the staples in my diet the last few days. i can eat normal food if i chew with only my front teeth (which i bet is a super appetizing view for whoever i'm eating with). doing this front chew thing though apparently grosses me out and makes me feel ridiculously nauseous. i feel like an old person gumming down their food without their dentures in. grooooss. plus my jaw gets super tired, i get bored of eating and my food ends up tasting awful. i can't wait to bite into a big apple or munch on some avocado salad mmmmmmmmm.

when my friend april got her wisdom teeth out, she said that a stitch went into her cheek and she couldn't open her mouth very wide, etc. i can't open my mouth very wide right now either, but i took a peek inside today, and i'm pretty sure i have a stitch in my cheek too. maybe it's supposed to be like that, but either way, i'm tired of not eating solid food and i'm tired of my jaw getting tired from talking. this bloooooooooows. plus i'm on penicillin so i can't drink at all right now (it's not like i'm a big drinker anyway, but tomorrow is my friend sam's bday and i was thinking of drinking there because i could just sleep over. turns out my plan is foiled. drat.) tomorrow i'm going to make him a birthday card. i love birthday cards. he hates nicknames, but i've given him several, so i'm some how gonna incorporate them all onto a card or something. samskatoon and samsquatch are my two favorites. should be a fun night.

p.s: after i published this, the ad next to the screen was for tooth infection cures, etc. i don't like how personal the internet is getting. it's kind of creepy. obviously keeping a blog doesn't help limit the personal stuff lol, but i'm just focusing on the intense advertising system right now. :P

junk food out

i've been eating kind of unhealthily lately. lost of late night snacking. lots of mid-day snacking because i'm stuck at home a lot. i'm gonna get in shape. it's been said before. but this time i think i can do it, because i don't have the money to waste on the junk i stuff my face with late at night. no more frappicinos, french fries, slurpees, chocolate bars, chips, etc. i can't even buy myself sushi. but that's just because i'm strapped for cash. mmm sushi.

starting....now.

tomorrow i get my wisdom teeth out and can't eat anything at all all day (which totally blows), but at least i wont be able to eat junk food! the first few days are the hardest! lol, i chose well, it's kind of a cheat, but i wont tell if you wont.

this is not a diet diet, this is a be healthy and stop wasting your money on crap food lifestyle change. i'm also trying to not waste money on other crap like clothing and such. money is now for school and hang outs only. wish me luck!

(also wish me luck on the teeth. (pls&thx) i'm kind of nervous)

screaming for ice creaming

there's this one blog i check called apologies, and they haven't updated in a while, so everytime i check it, i see this picture.

everytime i want the vanilla ice cream with sprinkles SO BAD.

yum.

chocolate chip banana muffins from hell

making muffins has never been so infuriating!

-i preheat the oven. i see a small fire at the bottom of the oven because someone let something fall and burn and never cleaned it up (to be fair it was probably me lol)
-i clean the oven
-go get chocolate chips and bananas
-start mixing stuff. i don't have eggs.
-go out again and buy eggs
-while peeling the bananas i drop one in the garbage
-i continue mixing stuff while spilling flour EVERYWHERE
-i mean EVERYWHERE. i'm worse than a kindergartner
-time to put it in the muffin pans
-where the heck are the muffin pans
-call my sister and my folks to help solve the mystery of the missing pans(my mom was the last one to make muffins and she washed the pans after. she never washes dishes so she probably put them away somewhere ridiculous)
-they know nothing
-i look everywhere and can't find them anywhere. whoever took them didn't even bother to leave a ransom note.
-conclusion: the pans have entered a black hole and are never going to be seen again
-now i'm trying to bake chocolate chip banana bread
-i've never made banana bread or anything close to it before in my life

.....we'll see how this ends in about an hour...if i don't burn the house to the ground in frustration first.


on the plus side: i won tickets to see the movie away we go tonight, so i'm going to that with kelsey. i'll get myself a popcorn and nibble away my bad vibes. another good thing: i bought cherries caz they were on sale and they're delicious.



UPDATE:
the banana bread turned out ok.

i'm in the need for a distraction. i just realised it's been 6 months and i haven't gotten anywhere. it's time to force myself into something.
i need to not need distractions.

i really want to complete my 101 goals list. i'm going to buy a new camera on sunday to help with that. (still looking for suggestions for some goals, let me know if you have any ideas)

(bonus! i just remembered i bought those easter eggs yesterday!)

i did something kind of silly this weekend. i wont say i regret it, but i'm still a little confused with myself.

in other news, my mom and i signed up for some fitness class, i think called zumba. you dance your way into shape. coordination here i come! also i think kelsey and i are going to try our hand at hot yoga. i think it mostly just makes you sweat glisten. which is supposed to get all the ick out of you. i hate sweating glistening.

i'm supposed to be working on a paper. i'm not in a research paper writing mood. i'd rather write about chocolate and a fitness routine apparently.

p.s: THE SNOW IS MELTING. WE'RE HAVING WEATHER NOT IN THE NEGITIVES. heck yes! bike rides and summer time loving are coming!

edit: stil not writing my research paper, i spenat some time on my 101 goals. i am now up to 69 goals. 32 more to think up.

workin hard for that money

so, the thing is. i need money. a lot of money. well, maybe not a lot, but as of now i don't have enough. enough for what you ask? life, basically. school mostly. and i want to move out and get a car and travel. travelling will probably come first though after school is over. one more year to go.

i always told myself i wouldn't work with food. but gosh darn, i think that's my next step. i'm gonna apply at some restaurants soon. it'll hopefully make me more mula then what i make now (although i'll keep my job i have now for once a week kind of thing because i love the job/people). plus if i get a job at one of the restaurants by the mall, it will be a heck of a lot closer. aka not 1 hour bus rides to work.
we'll see how it goes.

i hated the hours in rogers and how boring it was. but i did like the fact i pretty much got paid to hang out with my friends, do crafts and watch movies. i miss the regulars. there was the really muscular guy, the group of guys craig and i always got who rented futurama and such (who we're friends with in non-work life now), there was the guy and his gf who rented shark vs. eagle upon my suggestion and didn't like it (i felt bad), bye mitch, and my fav regular: curly haired mop top boy who i thought was 18 but turns out he's 23. everyone i worked with knew i thought this boy was dreamy (mostly because of his hair), and shawn made a point of finding out how old he is because we all debated it, and he texted me right after he found out lol. craig ran into him a month or more ago and asked him how old he was too. he probably thinks all of us roger's kids are quacks. lol just major creepers. sweet.

(no idea where i found this, but i like it. it has pretty much no relevance to this post but whatever)

"Sorry about the bony elbows, sorry we lived here, sorry about the scene at the bottom of the stairwell and how I ruined everything by saying it out loud. Especially that, but I should have known. You see, I take the parts that I remember and stitch them back together to make a creature that will do what I say or love me back.
...
Here is the repeated image of the lover destroyed. Crossed out. Clumsy hands in a dark room. Crossed out. There is something underneath the floorboards. Crossed out. And here is the tabernacle reconstructed. Here is the part where everyone was happy all the time and we were all forgiven, even though we didn't deserve it.
..." -Richard Siken


i think i want another tattoo soon. and by soon i mean within the next few years. i think i want another bird. this time on my other side, maybe, lower side back, pretty much on a love handle. but i'd want it pretty small. that or i should just buy a real bird, i think that could make me happy too.

i also want to bake cinnamon buns. i think i;ll do that tomorrow. if you know me well, you know that they are my weakness. actually i find i'm drawn to any food that you can eat in a circle.

i think i'm going to start a list of things i want to do before i die.

i know what i like, but i'm not sure what i want.

happy gate night

bday is comin up soon! it'll be a busy weekend for sure. the 7th i'm goin for dinner, karaoke and dancing with friends, then the next day i have to do a family photo shoot (me and my sister's anniversary gift to my folks) then i work, then out to dinner for my bday with the gals from work then to hifi for pauls' bday theeeeeeen sunday out for food again with my fam! i'm gonna be a chubby bunny that weekend!

tomorrow is halloween! kinda pumped, i love halloween! i'm going as a doll this year, not for sure knowin my costume yet (it's mostly in the make up anyway) but kels is coming over to help me out tonight and carve pumpkins :)

m tat is lokin gross with the healing, they told me this would happen but i'd never seen it on anyone i know before caz i'd only ever seen it after it was healed, so it gross. pretty much doing the sunburned skin thing! (hey look dale, i did blog about it.just minus the photo ick)

i still need a dress to wear for my bday. got my cheque from the photo shoot so that can go towards my outfit! deal? deal.

crunchy friends in a liquid broth

i've been in my new house for about 7 months now. i still have no idea what 3/4's of the light switches belong to.

i just ate a bowl of croutons. i live off carbs, it's so bad. but mmm stale garlic bread. mmmmm carbs.




soup, soup a-tasty
soup, soup a-spicy
carrot and coriander
chili chowder
crouton, crouton
crunchy friends in a liquid broth
i am gazpacho, ooh
i am a summer soup, mmm
miso, miso
fighting in the dojo
miso, miso
oriental prince in the land of soup!



oh my goodness. i just blogged about croutons and light switches.
i promise something slightly more interesting next time...

sweetie pies

the last picture makes me laugh so hard, i don't know why!

i had my first cupcake from the cupcakery on yesterday. wasn't that awesome. it was a chocolate cupcake with vanilla icing with cookie crumbles on top and a oreo cookie (just the cookie, not the full oreo) baked at the bottom. home-made cupcakes take the cake.


my sister loves sushi, so i was going to make these sushi looking cupcakes for her for her bday, but it never happened. maybe next year!