how many converstions can you have at once

i've always wanted to play the piano. i had a keyboard at my house for years, but obviously couldn't play. i was too shy/embarrassed to ask for lessons, i'm not sure why.
it's ridiculous how shy i used to be. i still get shy, and now i blush, but i definitely talk a lot more now. a lot more. i would say i'm relatively outgoing, depends who i'm with.
i avoid awkward situations, and i decided that i'm not going to do that anymore, because being a little bit awkward never hurt anyone, so why avoid a conversation, you never know where it may lead! i'm not going hunting for them, but hey, if it happens, i'll go with it.

on another note, i was thinking about the universe and god yesterday in my medieval/renaissance art history class. i for sure think jesus was real, there can't have been such a wide spread tale about someone who never existed could there? not saying everything said about him is true, but i'm sure person-wise he did exist. either way, that's not really my point. i got freaked out for a bit, because for such an expansive place to be a part of aka the universe and beyond...how the heck did everything come into being. obviously we've all thought this before, but i just hadn't thought about it a while, and like always it blew my mind. literally shot confetti and sparkles out of my ears. it really is amazing that we have no idea how any of this happened. who cares how the earth and it's inhabitants were created, i'm just curious about everything else. it's an infinite loop of questions that will never be answered. and i think that is pretty neat.

and now another change of subject. i'm determined to go travelling through europe in 2010, after i (hopefully) graduate. i've started saving, i'm pretty much at nothing, but i have a year and a half to save. i want to go travelling alone, i'll probably get ridiculously lost at more than one point, but i'm pretty good at getting out of sticky situations. i've put my mind to it, so it is going to happen.

p.s: i finished twilight, so now i have to go buy the other 3 books. the ending was kind of weak, but that's ok. i found what i'm getting my sister for christmas. i decided to get everyones gifts really early so i actually have money for parties and outings at xmas, and so that i don't have to murder everyone at the mall if i wait. i have to work xmas eve this year..and boxing day. oh goodness, wish me luck.