sometimes i forget i'm not the only one aging. certain people feel a certain age, look a certain age. my sister for instance, always has been always will be older than me. i've always pictured her to be a lot farther ahead in life and more grown up than me, but then when i think she's only 23, and that i have friends older than her, have dated people older than her, i feel that we're the same age. it's an odd seesaw. when i think back to people i haven't seen in a long time, i picture them at that exact age. if they're older than me i feel like i'm finally catching up, but then i remember they've been aging too. sometimes i forget how old i am. time seems really insignificant. this entire past school year feels like a dream. it went by so fast. age and time disorients me form time to time.
tomorrow i'm volunteering at a gallery. i just finished by 7th (or 8th or 9th) book in 20 days. i have fabric and collage materials. i have things to paint.
i was looking at an old post of mine about things i thought would make me happy in a perfect world, and i had listed things that i thought i could realistically work on and do. those things i just listed were all part of that. i'm a self-fulfilling prophecy! lol
i think sometimes people try a lot too hard. or they look too hard for certain things. i do it too. it's ok. this summer i'm going to just open up to everything. let life come at me and dish out what it wants.
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