whoa ooooh oooh

tilt a whirl

just rediscovered this photo from 2 years ago (taken with my action sampler)

also....my blog is 4 years old....whoa

big hairy deal

these pictures were taken almost exactly 2 years apart.
so strange. i was at a totally different place in my life two years ago.
to me, they hardly look like the same person.

sometimes i miss being bright blonde.
but, in the end i like being more natural.
it's a lot less upkeep.

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i feel that over the past two years, i've definitely grown up a lot. i have much higher self-esteem, for one. i've always been opinionated, but i didn't always stand up for myself in the past. i no longer apologize for everything, even if it's not my fault, just to avoid confrontation. i'm a lot more open with people about my fears and feelings. i don't put up with people who don't respect me.
i feel like i'm in a huge transition period right now, and i am so ready for it.
i feel the strongest i have in a long time.

biggest lesson learned: take things at face value. don't over analyze. go with the flow and see what happens.


this post is so corny, but it's true.

just a lil sumthin sumthin

reflective
positive
happy

thank goodness for friends.

bizness

i can't wait for bare feet in grass.

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if you aren't yet into tune-yards, get into them. they're great.
i'd posted another tune-yards tuneskie a while ago. if you missed it, look up the song "fiya".

don't put me in a vintage or antique store and expect me to not buy anything.

yesterday i bought a typewriter. it's missing it's ribbon, but i'm pretty sure it could still work if i wanted to use it. right now it's purely for decoration.

except in my current living arrangement i have absolutely no where to put it...so it's sitting on a towel on my floor haha.

it's a beast! it weighs 35 pounds!!

i like it. it was a good find for $15.

it seems every time i walk into a vintage/antique store i walk out with either an accessory or a gadget of some sort (usually a camera). i'm ok with that.

rollercoaster!

ups, downs, left and rights. shits coming at me from every angle!
some positive,
some negative,

but i got this!

today was relieving in a sense. even though everything is still completely up in the air on all fronts, it's still nice to hear SOMETHING!
it's nice to know that your efforts haven't gone unnoticed.

now let's make this hard work pay off!

number crunchers

i wish i could delete more "friends" from facebook.
i have 339 "friends" after i just deleted 21 people.

the reason i feel like i "can't" delete more people is because i would feel rude if they noticed (although i'm not sure that many would...). a lot of the people i would delete would be current and ex-coworkers i have never hung out with outside of work, acquaintances or friends-of-friends that i see every rarely and the only conversations we ever have is small talk. as well, i would delete a lot of people i used to be friends with that i don't ever talk to anymore, and stuff like that.
i got curious as to how many people i'd actually delete if i didn't feel any social guilt by doing so, and the number was 117. that's a hefty number. being the big list fanatic and number cruncher that i am, i sorted my facebook friends into several groups to see what group ruled. it wasn't all that surprising, but it is a little sad.

my results:

actual friends: 63

mostly party friends/people in my social group that i only hang with in larger groups: 70

acquaintances/friends of friends (aka people who i'd mostly have small talk with): 86

family: 9

current/ex-coworkers: 39

councils/groups: 12

friends from high school: 21

people i used to be good friends with, but don't see too often anymore: 32

other (including random swede i met at a bar, my tattoo artist, two of one friend's ex-girlfriends, a friend's dog, etc): 7

(for those keeping track, only 40% (friends + social group friends) of my facebook friends are people i actually consider my friends...)


if i were able to delete guilt-free, i would be down to 222. this grouping would be friends, the majority of the social group friends, a couple family members, and then people who i felt would be good to stay in touch with for arts/cultural job/event/etc purposes. i would like to delete 35% of my "friends" on facebook.

sometime i'd like to just delete facebook all together, because it creeps me out at times, but in the end, i keep it, because it really is a great way to keep in touch with people and figure out what to do on a friday night...

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sorry, i know this post was probably real boring for anyone other than me, but in the end it's my blog, and it's all about recording my thoughts, inspirations, etc. so yeah.
there will be more music, art, and whatever else soon i'm sure.

catchy

i'mma fluurt. super catchy mashup. i wish more dance places played music like this.

this video's pretty dumb, but it made me chuckle when i noticed the wizards cap poking through the sunroof.

enjoy!

don't you want me to wake uuuuup? then give me just a bit of your time

over thinking
leads to

...insomnia
...writing
...crosswords and logic puzzles
...headphones and darkness
...frustration
...confusion
...listening to dance yrself clean by lcd soundsystem on repeat and wishing everyone else wasn't sleeping so i could belt it out (instead of silently mouthing the words...not nearly as satisfying haha)

arg.

busy busy bee

i'm going a little stir crazy.
and i think things are getting to me.
i need to move out.
but first i need a job.
but i don't want any shit job, i want a job i actually would like to go to in the mornings. i've found two perfect jobs in the last two weeks and have applied for both of them. one is with a company specializing in film and music, and the other is the province's arts/culture board. i'm just waiting now to hear back.
i'm not feeling very encouraged with how my job hunt has been going.
but i'm trying to stay positive.
and busy.
and happy.

things that have made me happy in the past week:
-quality girl time spent with some friends
-successful clothing swap
-drawing outdoors on a blanket, in the sun, drinking wine
-listening to the strum of the ukulele while in said sunshine
-making a pair of earrings
-fixing a broken pair of earrings
-a good friend has come back from an eight month long journey
-my stools finally have enough of a base coat on them that i can start decorating

things i would like to work on/projects i would like to complete:
-push myself more and be more adventurous
-start biking more places
-fix-up/build-up that mini bike from nye
-learn how to upholster so i can add cushions to my stools
-work on deeper connections
-take that trip


i can handle pressure. i can step up to the occasion.
but sometimes i still feel overwhelmed.

my friend just got back yesterday from india and passed on to me a few little trinkets. one was a little white fish. i'm not quite sure if it's meant as a bead or a button, but either way i turned it into an earring.

they're kind of strange mismatched earrings, but i think i like them. they're made with beads, wire, buttons and feathers.






one positive thing about being unemployed is that i've had time to catch up on some crafting. i've been working on making over some stools that i had gotten for free from the store when it closed. so far i've just been priming them. they're mighty thirsty stools; they've been soaking up so much paint. i'm only going to do one more coat then move on to the next step. before/after pictures when i'm done.


now off i go to drink wine in a park. spring is coming, i can feel it!