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-i had a dream about william from stylista the other night, i don't remember any of it besides me driving a minivan and meeting him because he was crossing the street and then he got in my car
-i'd forgotten how much i liked arctic monkeys
-i'm excited about my christmas cards
-they know me by drink at starbucks in os. oh no, i'm a regular!
-i think i had a "say hello to me" sign on today, i got an unusual amount of random hellos on my break and after work. a boy with ice blue eyes started it all on my break, with full blown eye contact and a friendly hello.
-all of the new things in kelsey's apartment gave me mad allergies and bad headaches today
-i've decided i like my haircut
-was listening to a cover of creep, guy has a great voice but totally can't say his r's, "i'm a cweeeeep"
-yesterday, i got in/out of my car 3 times, and each time when i got in, the radio was playing sex on fire by kings of leon
-we made killer sales this month and we'll be getting a bonus!
-today, i feel accomplished and happy
-...i just remembered as i typed feeling accomplished i forgot to deposit my cheque
-one point life, zero points lauren



i bet that you look good on teh dancefloor, and mardy bum, by the arctic monkeys. my two favorites from whatever people say i am, i'm not.

everytime you close your eyes

kels moved into her apartment yesterday, it's a bachelor but it's super nice, it still has semi-separations so it doesn't feel like one big room thing. didn't take us too long to move everything up and get drinking lol. it was a good night.
yesterday i worked on the alpha book and on xmas cards, if you get one from me, i hope you like it, there's an elf suit and a unicorn involved...

anyway, check out these wicked book things:

the good the bad and the baleful

ouch! i cut my foot on my rug today. no idea how but there was blood gushing in all directions! aka i have a tiny cut worthy of a tiny band-aid.

the goods the bads of me:
-i bought my mom something for xmas that she just commented on tonight that she decided she doesn't want anymore. seriously happens every year. i was pumped on the gift too :( oh well, i'm not returning it, i refuse!
-i have a vocab exam tomorrow and do not feel prepared
+studying for the vocab i did learn new words
+i have ridiculous ways of studying that work. ex: baleful = to be full of menacing and evil. i remember this by thinking christian bale was in the new batman movie where it was full of menacing evil bad guys. sweet. you should here my thought process on words like abrogate.
-still have to buy my sister the rest of her xmas gift
-the only thing i asked for for xmas (swindle magazine subscription) has halted all subscription services right now. LAME
+after my exam tomorrow i just have to hand in a paper on thurs and i'm done til the rest of my exams!
-i don't have the same holiday time as my friends/family...aka no holiday time
+craig and i are illustrating an alphabook, i'm working on C and D
+i help kelsey move into her appt on friday/saturday and i'm so pumped for her :D
+i'm determined to make it out to the wags best commercial thing this year


best plus of all, the school term is almost done, and christmas is coming! christmas is coming!

snap

old films usually bore me with their slow pace.
but boy, do they have class.

i wonder if they knew they were gorgeous?

kaboom

ignore the video, just listen to the song. heard it a few months back, still like it. saw it in stranger than fiction, and even though it led to a mini make out sesh involving will ferrel, it made my heart explode, it was ten kinds of sweet.

if you know any movies or books that make your heart explode, let me know.
i'm surprised i have much heart left, i've let it burst too many times. but it's there. sometimes i can feel it trying to escape.

now i need to be extra lame and post two of my favorite quotes from twilight and new moon.

"Before you...my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars - points of light and reason. .... And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliance, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no reason for anything."

"I was like a lost moon- my planet destroyed in some cataclysmic, disaster-movie scenario of desolation- that continued, nevertheless, to circle in a tight little orbit around the empty space left behind, ignoring the laws of gravity."

even though i'm lactose intolerant, i sure do like my cheesy moments. well look what i've gone and done, my heart has exploded once more.

hair today gone tomorrow (har har hair)

new hair. has darkness on the half you can't really see.


(this is how short i wanted to go but i chickened out!! so for now, i just have to tuck the longer layer away and i can have short hair in pictures? ugh so lame)
i cut my hairs. yup, pretty much every one of them! it feels short to me, but i know its still long considering normal hair length standards hah, oh well. not sure how i feel bout it yet! i wanted to go shorter but i freaked in the chair lol, maybe next time.


sigh. i've been doing school work all day. lame. i'm so not a school type of girl. i fell way behind in one class so i have to do extra credit, i don't even know when i can fit that in. i will officially have a lack of life until dec 13th when my last exam is over.
things to get done by monday night:
-10 page research paper
-the research for that paper
-film and contemporary though essay
-study for vocabulary exam for film enchante (random i know lol)

it hasn't stressed me out yet, i just don't want to do it. on the plus side though, i just finished looking up the 111 words on the vocab exam, so i'm now 111 words smarter!

so bad

last night i went to the advance screening of twilight and it was...AWFUL. so bad. like kids channel made for tv kind of movie. awful. the acting was bad, the clothing and make up was horrible, the plot sucked. everything about it was horrible.

everyone in the theatre was laughing AT it. SO BAD. it wasn't even one of those movies like lake placid two where it's so bad it's meant to be funny...sort of. this was just so so bad, and not supposed to be funny. the movie should of made me cry, which i guess it did, but because i was laughing at it.

to be honest, i knew what was coming, imdb only had it at 5.2/10, but still. they slaughtered the book. it was like watching the film on fast forward because they only showed events and none of the emotions behind it. plus edward came off like a total skitzo stalker creep. not fun.

oh not to mention we had to stand in line with a bunch of 13 yr old girls, and when they let the line open to go into the theatres, there was a STAMPEDE of 13 yr olds running and screaming, they knocked over the podium. tweens are vicious little things! not gonna lie, my heart got pumping they scared the crap out of me! little did they know there were 2 theatres so me and my group went into the one right next to the door which was about half empty unlike the other one where every seat was filled.

so in conclusion, twilight was one of the worst movies i've seen in so long. i had low expectations anyway, and the books are still great, but do not waste your time on this film.


in other news: i'm cutting my hair today! (it's a big deal for me) so wish me luck! FAREWELL!

a PINK elephant you say? well that changes everything..

you know that expression about ignoring the pink elephant in the room? why would the fact that the elephant is pink be a deciding factor? you would think that any elephant in your room would be highly noticeable and hard to avoid.

hmm, just a thought.


p.s: finished book 2 in twilight. i wish i could read this fast through my text books.
p.p.s: i do not condone the painting of elephants, no matter how neat the picture turns out or how well it relates to my train of though ;)

rose colored glasses

i was just shutting off the lights down stairs and thinking "how sad is it that at 17 i'm still scared something will jump out at me from the dark" then "wait a minute, i'm 18." "wait...19.." i'm going senile already!

so i'm half way through book II of the twilight series, and (SPOILER..kind of..ALERT) a werewolf just showed up. its funny how when that happened i "psssch"ed the novel. caz i mean, vampires totally real, but werewolves, now that's unbelievable! haha sometimes my logic doesn't make sense. either way, i was ballin last night when i was reading the book caz something sad happened. it's sad how easy i get into books and movies, make anyone in them cry and i'm crying right beside them!

kels and i went shopping today caz she wnated to buy me a late bday present. of course i ended up buyin myself stuff too i totally didnt need. i bought some jeans, they're light wash (whoa). i havent worn light colored jeans since my favorite jeans stopped fitting in grade 12. they're pretty decent. kels bought me a cardigan type thing, it's grey (surprise surprise). i really tried to not get a grey or black one, but the other colors were icky. annnnd then kels needed some shoes and the first size they brought out was too big so i slipped them on and they fit great...we ended up buying the same pair of chucks. which craig also has. craig and i have the same jacket, just boy and girl variations. liek craig said, we're one step away from a music video. le sigh.

i'm getting my hair done on friday. i'm getting it cut. i have an idea in mind, not mega short, short for me, but about collarbone length. i think it'll look cool. plus i'm gonna go even blonder, like white blonde. i may look albino after, if so, i'll just get low lights next time lol. i'm just so sick and bored of my hair, wish me luck!

achoo!

excuse me.

la la christmas

i decided this year i'm starting early! i've already bought some christmas presents! i've got my dad and my sister down which i'm pumped about. i really like my sisters gift, i hope she does too! i hate settling for gifts, i always want to get someone something they'll love. i dunno if i can afford doing friend presents this year, but i know i'll end up doing it anyway. i love buying presents for people.

i'm gonna make some sweet ass xmas cards this year. i'm determined.

we decorated the store last night for xmas. they had me on a ladder (yikes, it gets worse) tying big glass (told you) christmas balls to fishing string at the front display of the store. of course i dropped one. miraculously it didn't shatter to pieces! then when i was driving a friend home i somehow completely misjudged my distance from my car seat and smoked my body on the door frame of the car. super graceful.
not only do i hate winter because of the cold, but it also plays with my weaknesses. why do i live in a place that for months, is coated in ice?! i've already fallen several times. thanks for the bruises.

i bought the 2nd book of the twilight series, i'm kinda scared to start it caz know i'll get consumed in it and i have so much school things to do right now! yikes, my finals are coming up fast and i have 3 essays to write this week. one i need to do tomorrow and one is a 10 page research paper i haven't started. ick.

i bought a WAD magazine the other day. i never fully read into the title but it stands for we'ar different. so it can be read wear different and we are differnt. i like it, good title making skills whoever. plus it's a collectable cover edition! neat!

last night i felt really good. i was happy.
i didn't want to fall asleep yet.
i wrote a bit in my journal. i wrote about nothing.
i wrote how i had purple paint on my foot.
and i wrote a poem with no rhythm.
i just wanted to rhyme.
then i had my pod on shuffle.
and these four songs lulled me to sleep:

john bion - elephant parade
belle and sebastien - the boy with the arab strap
david gray - cry
spoon - everything hits at once

it's funny when my pod plays the music for my mood.
pssst, elephant parade is really lovely, very short, but i bet you'd like it.

how many converstions can you have at once

i've always wanted to play the piano. i had a keyboard at my house for years, but obviously couldn't play. i was too shy/embarrassed to ask for lessons, i'm not sure why.
it's ridiculous how shy i used to be. i still get shy, and now i blush, but i definitely talk a lot more now. a lot more. i would say i'm relatively outgoing, depends who i'm with.
i avoid awkward situations, and i decided that i'm not going to do that anymore, because being a little bit awkward never hurt anyone, so why avoid a conversation, you never know where it may lead! i'm not going hunting for them, but hey, if it happens, i'll go with it.

on another note, i was thinking about the universe and god yesterday in my medieval/renaissance art history class. i for sure think jesus was real, there can't have been such a wide spread tale about someone who never existed could there? not saying everything said about him is true, but i'm sure person-wise he did exist. either way, that's not really my point. i got freaked out for a bit, because for such an expansive place to be a part of aka the universe and beyond...how the heck did everything come into being. obviously we've all thought this before, but i just hadn't thought about it a while, and like always it blew my mind. literally shot confetti and sparkles out of my ears. it really is amazing that we have no idea how any of this happened. who cares how the earth and it's inhabitants were created, i'm just curious about everything else. it's an infinite loop of questions that will never be answered. and i think that is pretty neat.

and now another change of subject. i'm determined to go travelling through europe in 2010, after i (hopefully) graduate. i've started saving, i'm pretty much at nothing, but i have a year and a half to save. i want to go travelling alone, i'll probably get ridiculously lost at more than one point, but i'm pretty good at getting out of sticky situations. i've put my mind to it, so it is going to happen.

p.s: i finished twilight, so now i have to go buy the other 3 books. the ending was kind of weak, but that's ok. i found what i'm getting my sister for christmas. i decided to get everyones gifts really early so i actually have money for parties and outings at xmas, and so that i don't have to murder everyone at the mall if i wait. i have to work xmas eve this year..and boxing day. oh goodness, wish me luck.

whisper me your darkest secrets

when it's dark
i send you secret messages
i close my eyes and think of you
do you send me them too?

i don't know if i get it. and i don't know if i need to.



p.s: word on the street is that the strokes are coming out with a new album in '09

if you want me to, i could hang round with you...

reading the book right now, and actually so into it. i'm half way through and i'm glad the other two books in the series are already out so i can just keep on going til i'm through. the writing is fairly simple, but it's a romantic story involving teens and vampires, lol what more could you want? actually though, didn't think i would like it because of the story premise, but it's great. wont change your life, but definitely a good read. i think its more for gals than guys though, even though i'm sure a fellow could get into it too.

it usually bugs me when i read a book, then the movie comes out and the character look/sound nothing like how i imagine. i think this is the first time where i've seen the characters of the movie before i've read the book. it's kind of cool having a premade image in my mind of the characters, because that is who i visualize when i read. that way when the film comes out (i think i'm going to an early screening of it with a friend on the 20th) i'll not be disappointed...at least in that respect!

on a side note: robert pattinson (the guy who plays edward aka the vampire love interest aka cedric diggory in harry potter) is a total babe. but he looks creepy in ever picture i can find of him.

kinda like a time machine

i had a really good birthday. friday was a highlight, so thanks for that!

on friday me and a few friends went to wasabi for dinner which was terrific. my friend kevin came which i was super happy about because i haven't gotten to hang out with him in ages! then we trotted across the street for karaoke which i now know how to spell lol, and it was also ridiculous and funny. ended the karaoke with my favorite song to sing, semi-charmed life by third-eye blind. i woke up the next morning with no voice. my ride had to leave after the sing-a-long so she drove kelsey, craig and i back to craigs to get his car, but the fierceness of the weather kept us there where we drew pictures, drank and wrapped me in saran wrap for reasons unknown to us. i guess we thought it would be funny. it was.

saturday i had an early morning family photo shoot (my sis and i got it as a gift for my folks for their 25th anniversary) and it went well i guess. pretty cheesy but that's ok. when i got to work, kelsey (from work) and april surprised me with songs, candles and cupcakes. made me grin. i really like the girls from work! right after work i headed to kelseys (non-work kelsey) and had diner, got dressed and headed out for round two of birthday parties, but this time it was for my friend paul. tried to get into a few clubs but they were insane so we ended up at the st.b hotel (super scuzzy, but the music was my style so i was into it). silly dancing, techno and 40 yr old men with no teeth were included n that experience. it was pretty fun. after the bar closed we over stuffed a car and went to johnny g's where simone (craig and my favorite waitress) was there, smokey voice and all. the ride home was another mix of sing-a-longs to both man man (where we all made up lyrics) and flight of the conchords. again it was a great night. and again i had no sleep.

sunday (my actual birthday) was really nice and chill, even though again i had no sleep. plenty of phone calls, hugs and food. my folks surprised me with a stereo (which i desperately needed because i've been having to use my dvd player which buzzes since my stereo broke 9 months ago!) and the stereo has a dock for my pod so i can listen to tunes from that. my sister bought me the box set of my so-called life which i'm already half-way through :)

thanks to all the people i love for making me feel awesome all weekend <3



toothpaste kisses - the maccabees


everybody's gotta learn sometimes - the korgis
(there's a cover done by beck for eternal sunshine of the spotless mind)

hello winter!!

I'll be your winter coat buttoned and zippedstraight to the throat
With the collar up so you won't catch a cold.

two days ago it was 18C and now we have snow!
what up with that?!

come on america!! vote obama!

i'm not sick but i'm not well

song came on in the car. i'd forgotten about this. it's one of those feeling songs. songs linked to some sort of memory, not sure which one though. enjoy :)

if only i took biology, imagine the parties!

happy eyes

sometimes i don't even pay attention to my own thoughts, and then i realise i'm thinking something odd like "if only i had a machine"...

what kind of machine you ask? i have no bloody idea!!

anywho, here are some pictures that made my eyes smile from the selby: