around the world around the wooooorld

yesterday i went to a student advisor, and if i do things right, i should be able to graduate uni with a degree by the end of next year!
i'll have to take 1 or 2 summer courses, but it's so worth it.

my after uni plans:
-start looking for real jobs
-but first, save up money in my crap job
-so that i can do a year in swap
-my folks wanna go to Holland in 2010, the year i should graduate
-so i'd go for a week with them, then embark on my own adventures
-anywhere in europe that speaks english
-aka i'd like to try Scotland, Ireland and maybe England if they'll have me
-and also swing by Italy and visit nicolo toccafondi, my crazy red headed italian pal i met in 2007 in Paris
-so maybe i wont do a swap, but i'm definitely travelling
-i think it's best to do it while your young with no career/family ties

i'm actually somewhat excited for my furture.

i would also like to go to Tokyo, but that's hella expensive. one day though, i'll make it. race ya there?

plus i'd also like to move out and get a car, but that can wait til after i get around the world.

take off your pants and stay a while

playground love - air


crystal castles - crimewave

they say you don't know what you have till it's gone. it doesn't even matter if you do know what you have, because when it's gone, still sucks.

i was reading postsecret books the other day (2 in one day, and 2 the day before) and a lot of the emails he gets in are like "i feel less alone because someone has the same secret as me" etc., but really, it just makes me sad because 90% of the secrets are sad ones. makes me feel like the whole world is sad. how is that a comforting thing?!

let's all be happy for a while! no harm in that now is there!

i'm excited for halloween tonight :)

firecrotch who art thou?

there's a fiery red headed lead singer and his band on tv right now. there is a tambourine also. i like them who the heck is this band? they're on channel 9 aka shaw tv channel.

off i go! now i'm on a hunt!

SUCCESS: the waking eyes



from wpg! remind me a lil bit of maximo park

p.s: he doesn't have the red hair here, but just now on tv it was brilliantly blazing in its natural glory

p.p.s: i think the receptionist at my tattoo place is in the video lol

happy gate night

bday is comin up soon! it'll be a busy weekend for sure. the 7th i'm goin for dinner, karaoke and dancing with friends, then the next day i have to do a family photo shoot (me and my sister's anniversary gift to my folks) then i work, then out to dinner for my bday with the gals from work then to hifi for pauls' bday theeeeeeen sunday out for food again with my fam! i'm gonna be a chubby bunny that weekend!

tomorrow is halloween! kinda pumped, i love halloween! i'm going as a doll this year, not for sure knowin my costume yet (it's mostly in the make up anyway) but kels is coming over to help me out tonight and carve pumpkins :)

m tat is lokin gross with the healing, they told me this would happen but i'd never seen it on anyone i know before caz i'd only ever seen it after it was healed, so it gross. pretty much doing the sunburned skin thing! (hey look dale, i did blog about it.just minus the photo ick)

i still need a dress to wear for my bday. got my cheque from the photo shoot so that can go towards my outfit! deal? deal.

great advice, tip #248:

wanna know a great way to end off a great day?

drive your dad's car into the BBQ and leave a huge deep scratch on the front of the car.

wicked. i'm awesome.

take me away

i feel so automatic sometimes. i do things because i have to or should, not because i want to. i do things because i don't want to get into trouble aqnd get yelled at. i don't feel spontaneous anymore, i don't find things exciting. i want to be in a place where i can just do what i want when i want (doesn't everyone?). when i picture this place, i picture the day in florence, when we had six hours, pretty much our whole day, to do whatever the hell we wanted. it was great to be able to just wander, sit, meet people, do whatever you'd like, in a completely foreign place.
i want to travel, i want to experience not having a plan and not having to do something.

will you take me away?

ta-da!

here it is!
i've decided to name my bird.
i'm thinking Hemingway.

chirp

got my tattoo! only got to look at it for like 5 minutes (it's bandaged up now), but i love it! i knew it'd be painful and ribs are supposed to be one of the most painful spots, but i didn't realise how fuckin painful! lol. while he did the outline, that hurt the most because it was slow and deep feeling. when people ask people "what's it feel like when you get a tattoo" my answer is "it feels like you're getting a needle jabbed into your skin than dragged really really deep" since mine were on my ribs, i felt like he was hitting bone haha. after the out line was done, he started on the shading and lighter stuff which kels had told me hurt the most for her (shading), but i found that hurt the least until he did the tail of the bird which is close my my arm pit/boob where apparently there are tons of nerve endings who hate me. that fackin huuuuuuuuuuuuuurt. i sorta watched fight club during it, but the tv didnt bend down so i could see it awesomely so it was all distorted, but that's ok! anyway, i'm super pumped on it, so glad i got it done even though, like i said IT HURT LIKE A MOFO! i will post pics tomorrow or sunday when i take of the bandage and clean it up :)

i'd definitely go back to him again, he was super sweet.

I'M SO PUMPED, THE BIRD IS BETTER THAN I COULD HAVE IMAGINED :D

hey jemiane ;)

hey sexy people. welcome to my wall! (not crooked, just webcam pic)
if all mascots were bret and jemaine, maybe i'd be less scared.
(bought a poster from school and makes me giggle everytime we look at it)

lmao, i was just workin out (look, i'm like a jock now) and while i was on the floor doin crunchies, i saw a fortune cookie paper, it said:

"A pecker is like a payday:
Neither one comes often enough."

haha, i dunno where it came from (not sure i want to), but it made me smile, hope it did for you too!

yikes

i'm freakin out. i'm freakin out. i'm freakin out. i'm freakin out. i'm freakin out. i'm freakin out. i'm freakin out. i'm freakin out. i'm freakin out.

ah. my tattoo appointment is tomorrow and i haven't been nervous or scared or anything up til now. i was surprised at myself how calm i was. then on the bus home today some guy showed his friend his tattoo and said it was by the same guy i'm going to (i didn't see it, but apparently it was sweet) and i guess it just hit me. holy crap. i'm getting a tattoo. i'm really excited, but i also feel like i might puke.

lol it may just be how i'm feeling today in general. i've been a whirlwind! i'm super sick feelin still today so i'm doped up on meds, plus i had caffeine (which is not super common for me, we more in the summer) so that makes me jittery, and just super paranoid about the world right now. shite.


^funny for a day, not funny to have for the rest of your life aka family beach day?

dubya tee eff

i had another dream about my tattoo last night.

i had gone into my tattoo place and switched artists caz i thought this other guy was better. so i show up for my appointment and he shows me the sketch of the bird. i'd asked for a realistic bird and he drew up a really stylized tribal/inuit looking bird (fig. 1). so i got upset and told him that wasn't what i wanted, he said oh okay, i know what you want, here i'll just free hand it when i tattoo you. so i agreed and hopped in a bath tub filled with water (i was getting my tattoo done under water for some reason, and i was also naked?). it was over in like 20 minutes and hadn't hurt at all. i get up to look at it in the mirror, and the guy drew two big black scottie dogs (fig 2) with a bird in the middle. all of them super realistic, but i never wanted dogs on me! plus the tat was huge and filled up my whole side and was all super dark black. and that was about the end of my dream.

fig 1:


fig. 2:

two more

Ice Belongs Entered Sideways Into Cantolpe Kangaroos.

i woke up feeling like absolute ass today. i wish i was still in highschool and my ob didn't matter caz i would be callin in sick today fo sheezy. but that is not the way i roll, so instead i'm off to work a full day then go to my night course...hurray.

here are some pictures to pass the time.

lol's:




i don't remember who these are by:



i don't remember who these are by either, someone names ryan i think:



these are by autumn whitehurst:



have a good day, and if you want to, send me a telepathic hug.

i only send 50% of what i want to say.
the rest of it gets written, judged, and deleted.

hello world,
i have asthma. since i've been running a lot more than normal, my lungs are protesting. today i took a few puffs from my inhaler. as i did this i thought to myself, "hmmm....how old is this?" turns out, it expired two years ago. gross.
well, at least it still works! but, who knows what i'm inhaling! i think i'll make a doc appt stat.
love lauren.

really. go study.

i don't think i'm supposed to like this, but i really do. i hate the guys hat, he wears it in pretty much every video. i imagine listening to this while in a dark basement with a bunch of people in a really chill mood. maybe some people are dancing, maybe some are making out. every one's having a perfect time though.


was on an ipod commercial. i dunno why, but a lot of electronic commercials have music i really like.


this song makes me want to lie in the middle of a huge field on a blanket in the summer, holding hands with someone i love.

dear lauren, you really should be studying.

things i have discovered today via stumbleupon.:

-my birth may have been irrelevant because an astroid could have distroyed us all:
"Year: 1989

Proximity to Earth (number of times Earth/Moon distance): 700,000 km (About twice the distance from the Earth to the Moon)

In a nutshell: Most frighteningly, this 1 km-wide asteroid passed precisely where the Earth had been only six hours before."

-

-monkies and tigers love eachother

posin for the camera

tellin secrets

sharing jokes

piggy back rides

excuse me while my heart explodes

cough

last night i went to that social, and again it was really REALLY lame, we were the youngest ones there by 20 years. so we went to stereo and the "line-up" was absolutely insane! of course line-ups aren't real and you just go to the front of the line anyway, so that's what we did, we still waited 20 min to actually get in. it was fun, and really really hot in there. i got to see tons of friends i haven't seen in ages. i also had some super embarrassing conversations to/from/at the bar lol, but that's ok, i slept them all off, so now it's old news.
my throat kills today, it always does after the bar. apparently i smoke now when i'm drinking? gross but whatever.

i've started running everyday now this past week on my tredmill since it finally got fixed, makes me happy :)


sigh. this is such a pointless post. i just don't want to study.

ten conversations

i'm really excited about my tattoo, i've actually been having dreams and not being able to sleep because i'm thinking about it. last night i dreamt i went into the shop and the guy showed me what he drew up and it was the bird i wanted but he had drawn about a million cheery blossoms behind it after i'd told him i didn't want any sort of background, so he said he'd go redraw it. so i sat around waiting for him and it took hours then we had to reschedule caz it was taking him so long and the shop closed. also half way through my dream he turned into a woman lol. i'm a really impatient person when i'm excited, so this next week is going to be a drag. i've been being kind of a slug myself lately, i've been going out and drinking a ton which is not like me, i think as a distraction, so it's nice having something else to focus on right now and be excited about :)

(side note: my dog is being really cute right now and is cuddled up and resting her head on my pillow (which will need washing asap now caz she drools since her tongue hangs out all the time, but still, she's adorable))

tomorrow i'm going to a social with friends which can either be really lame or really fun, we shall see!

i did that photo shoot thing today and it went pretty well. we had to pretend we're going on a road trip lol. we had shots in the car and hanging out around the car. super cheesy, but whatever i'm not gonna lie, i did it for the money! this one was a lot more professional feeling caz they had a real make up artist and it was a lot more organized than the driver's ed one i did. they had me sitting on the hood of the car at one point though which was already slanted on a slanted driveway and i was hardcore slipping off the entire time so i probably look super awkward, plus i had to tilt my head and be like "heeeey!". pics will be out in January i think, i don't even really know where they'll be, i think in the paper and in the autopac type places. that's the one thing i don't like about doing this, people will see it! last time i had randoms while i was working come up to me saying "hey you're on a poster at my school!" and "i saw you on a poster when i was getting my licence renewed". of course i blush like mad. oh well.

after the shoot my mum and i went to the mall to winter jacket hunt. i usually hate shopping with other ppl caz i'm not a slow shopper, so i ended up buying the first jacket i saw in the first store we went into lol, i like it though, it's cute and will keep me warm when i have to walk to the bus stop!

what are some tunes i should give a listen? i'm bored of the tunes on my pod.

i think that's my word of the day lately, bored. i think i just want distractions and i think i think i'm boring.

halloween is soon and i've actually decided what i'm being this time, like for real. i've already got 90% of the costume. i'm going to be a doll. not super original, but i don't care. i get to wear a skirt, knee high socks and fake eyelashes, so i'm happy. pictures will be posted after halloween.

plus i think i also decided what i'm doing for my bday. sushi dinner in oz then head to hifi, because even though i'm not a big fan, birthdays at the bar are a must. maybe even some karaoke.

also, i've discovered i sometimes speak in code, thinking people will know what i mean. i don't think they ever pick up on it, they just think i'm being weird or corny. you know that game concentration where someone says a word and you say the first thing that comes to mind and someone will say something ridiculous that wont make sense until you find out their train of thought? i kind of do that i think. i'll use a code word for something else thinking that the other person will get what i mean because they'd know my train of thought. it's like i made up an inside joke between me and another person, but they're not in on the joke so they don't get it. example: someone says superman and i say apple, because in my mind it goes superman-red underwear-red-apple, but i leave all the middle stuff out...now i'm confusing myself and all of you, i'm not even sure why i'm sharing this. i think i'm just (here comes that word again) bored.

yes, i'm still talking about it

i want my hair like this...so i was a big geek and cut and paste my face on victoria beckham to see what it'd look like lol


i actually think it might look ok, but then i'd just have to straighten my hair all the time and i think i'd miss my long curls...

i'm bored! change me!

throw me in the ring

natalli and francis on so you think you can dance canada, go watch.
Sexiest. Dance. Ever.

i watched this five times in a row now. i just love the way he spins and throws her across the dance floor. plus natalli is perfect for this dance, and check out that dress!! damn i wish i could dance.

oh avril

last night as i was getting ready for bed, brushing my teeth:

dad: hey lor, come here for a sec!
me: *leans over railing to look at him downstairs* what?
dad: avril lavinge's about to get punk'd!

lol i don't know why he was so excited about this and why he thought i would be too...i just walked away

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.

it's been decided, this is exactly what i feel like watching tonight.



Joel: [in the house on the beach] I really should go! I've gotta catch my ride.
Clementine: So go.
Joel: I did. I thought maybe you were a nut... but you were exciting.
Clementine: I wish you had stayed.
Joel: I wish I had stayed to. NOW I wish I had stayed. I wish I had done a lot of things. I wish I had... I wish I had stayed. I do.
Clementine: Well I came back downstairs and you were gone!
Joel: I walked out, I walked out the door!
Clementine: Why?
Joel: I don't know. I felt like I was a scared little kid, I was like... it was above my head, I don't know.
Clementine: You were scared?
Joel: Yeah. I thought you knew that about me. I ran back to the bonfire, trying to outrun my humiliation.
Clementine: Was it something I said?
Joel: Yeah, you said "so go." With such disdain, you know?
Clementine: Oh, I'm sorry.
Joel: It's okay.
[Walking Out]
Clementine: Joely? What if you stayed this time?
Joel: I walked out the door. There's no memory left.
Clementine: Come back and make up a good-bye at least. Let's pretend we had one.
[Joel comes back]
Clementine: Bye Joel.
Joel: I love you...
Clementine: Meet me... in Montauk...

UPDATE: watched it, and it ripped my fucking heart out. i love how real the conversation is in the movie. it's awkward, it's clumsy. joel and clemintine's relationship is nothing near perfect, they fight, they bicker, they play. i think it's represented in a perfect combination of good and bad, enough so to be real. i like also that we don't just see a portion of the relationship, we watch the entire course of it, and watch as they start again.

i think i'm doing the right thing career-wise. i fucking love movies, even the bad ones.

artsy fartsy

here's some art that i like. enjoy:

Greg Simkins:


(i'm in the middle of painting a replica of one of his paintings...i've been painting it for 2 years i think now though lol, i just haven't had time to paint and i really like it and i'm scared i'm gonna botch up the work i've already done on it.)

Kerry Skarbakka:


(OUCH.)

Yinka Shonibare:



(i love the clothes and how the 2nd image is an imitation of jean-honore fragonard's "the swing")

Cozyndan:

(cool interpretation)

Unknown:

(i'm just posting this, because this is one of the flowers i want when i get my leg tattoo....whenever that is. first i'm getting my bird!)

ch-ch-ch-changes

i booked my tattoo consultation appointment for tuesday, i'm nervous and excited. i'll get the actual tat sometime before november 9th.
i think he has an opening this friday even, but i dunno if i can do friday or not yet caz i might be doing a photo shoot thing for mpi. depends if they wanna use me or not. i think the fact that i have a lip piercing might be bad for me. if i do get to do it though, i'll take it out for the shoot if they want, even though that freaks me out so bad. i just need the money. it's not much, between $75-100 for a few hours, but i'll take it!.


i think i might also get something pierced soon. i can't think of anything i really want to get, but i might get my belly button done, but the bottom part and i'd just keep a barbell in, no playboy bunny chandelier dazzlers for me thanks. i'm just bored with my bod. but i'm broke and i'm getting a tattoo so i'll be even more broke, so that might have to wait til summer.

i'm also really board with my hair, and every day i want to chop it off! but i like having long hair caz you can do so much with it, but then i see a chick rockin super cute short hair and i want that. i should just go do it one day, i can't over think it caz then i'll never do it. everyone who i tell though tells me not too, except for marcus, my mom and kelsey. we'll see.

i'm trying to save up some cash right now caz i feel really low in funds. so pretty much, i don't let myself buy food anymore at school, work or when i'm out. that's my plan, no tims, no starbucks. back o living off cereal and the occasional home cooked meal if i'm home.

my sis got the job she wanted so she's planning to move out soonish. i'm scared, things'll get hectic around the house when she does. i'll just pick up more shifts at work and hide in my room lol

yesterday:


today:


tomorrow:

aaaangel

best dance scene.

quotes:
-I miss you like the sun misses the flower. Like the sun misses the flower in the depths of winter. Instead of beauty to direct its light to the heart hardens like the frozen world your absence has banished me to.
-If I could ask God one thing, it would be to stop the moon. Stop the moon and make this night and your beauty last forever.
-Well then a fox you shall be until I find your name, my foxy lady.
-Your name makes no matter to me, so long as I may call you my own.
-I come for confession. And the glass... A riot of color in a dreary grey world.

earlier today i was talking to a friend about which bands were our guilty pleasures. and i was later thinking about movies that are my guilty pleasures...a knight's tale is a big one. i love everything about it! the music, the costumes/set, the actors...everything. the scene above is one of my favorites of the movie, also when the group write the love letter to joceline. so sweet <3

not so romantic and not so cute: today i somehow stumbled upon marriage proposals gone wrong, aka public proposals where the answer is no. i felt so bad for the poor guys! and the girls who ran off stage! i would hate it if someone proposed to me in public or around a group of friends/family. i get embarrassed easily in that sense and i think i'd probably just start crying or puke from all the attention it would bring lol. i've never wanted a surprise party, but i've always wanted to throw one...maybe i'm a little hypocritical, but i'm ok with that!

i hope this turns out as good as the trailer makes it out to be!

p.s: i think i now might be a peacock for halloween! (it'll be pretty subtle, unlike these pics, which made me smile)

the last day before the extinction of the tribe

"...There were among them two-headed birds and birds with many wings, there were cripples too, limping through the air in one-winged awkward flight. The sky now resembled those in old murals, full of monsters and fantastic beasts, which circled around, passing and eluding each other in elliptical maneuvers.

My father rose on his perch and, in a sudden glare of light, stretched out his hands, summoning the birds with an old incantation. He recognized them with deep emotion. They were the distant, forgotten progeny of that generation of birds which at one time Adela had chased away to all four points of the sky. That brood of freaks, that malformed, wasted tribe of birds, was now returning degenerated or overgrown. Nonsensically large, stupidly developed, the birds were empty and lifeless inside. All their vitality went into their plumage, into external adornment. They were like exhibits of extinct species in a museum, the lumber room of birds' paradise.

Some of them were flying on their backs, and had heavy misshapen beaks like padlocks, were blind, or were covered with curiously colored lumps. How moved my father was by this unexpected return, how he marveled at the instinct of these birds, at their attachment to the Master, whom that expelled the tribe had preserved in their soul like a legend, in order to return to their ancient motherland after numerous generations, on the last day before the extinction of the tribe.
But these blind birds made of paper could not recognize my father. In vain did he call them with the old formulas, in the forgotten language of the birds--they did not hear him nor see him.

All of a sudden, stone began to whistle through the air. The merrymakers, the stupid thoughtless people had begun to throw them into the fantastic bird-filled sky.
In vain did Father warn them, in vain did he entreat them with magical gestures--he was not heard, nor heeded. The birds began to fall. Hit by stones, they hung heavily and waited while still in the air. Even before they crashed to the ground, they were formless heaps of feathers.

In a moment, the plateau was astrew with strange, fantastic carrion. Before my father could reach the place of the slaughter, the once-splendid birds were dead, scattered all over the rocks."

from the chapter "The Night of the Great Season" in the book "The Street of Crocodiles and Other Short Stories" by Bruno Schulz.

the book is told in short tales, so if you're a good, but slow reader, i suggest picking this up. it's a book you don't have to read in order. it will still make sense and still be beautiful.



(felt birds from http://www.tmogy.com/homep.html)

i really miss being a kid, when you believed the animals could understand you, and magic did exist. i had to watch the secret garden last night for an essay i'm writing, i hadn't seen it in years. i noticed so many more things watching it now then i did when i was younger. like how the walls in Mary and her cousin Colin's bedrooms are covered in tapestries and give off the look of a play fort built on a cold rainy day. also, the cinematography in it was really well done. you can pretty much stop the film at anytime, and the shot in frame will be beautiful. if it's a cold rainy day where you are, do yourself a favor and go rent this movie.

4 posts in one day...can you handle it?

saw nick and norah's infinite playlist tonight and it was everything it was cut out to be. they showed the best parts in the previews, but they were even funnier in the context of the movie. i really liked it and i bet you would too.
i started to tear up at one point, not because it was sad, but just because i love movie love and all love, and having real life movie love feeling love. i'm 100% a hopeless romantic, but hopefully not too hopeless. i'm repeating the same words a lot tonight aren't i...
p.s: devendra banhart has a cameo where he mentions orgasims...so unnecessary, but thanks for stopping by devendra!

kickin it back old school

in the 90's, bill cosby wasn't the only one who wore ugly sweaters.

what a big head i had have. lol
also: oh my gosh, do i look like my dad!

happy 100th

for my 100th post;
12 instant pictures.